The Words Of Pain and Sadness of Pegesus

well, here i am again, still waiting for the judge to sign the final papers to end my divorce. my attorney feels they are a bit back logged is why it's taking so long. im trying to be patient, but that is kinda hard when you have waited so long for the end and my life to begin. im trying to write to... Sign in to see full entry.

dreaming of a better world one with more happiness im tired of being down tired of being so afraid not knowing what each day holds in store for me looking towards the horizon waiting for the sun to shine to feel the cool breeze of freedom whipping at my face feeling the spring in my steps once more... Sign in to see full entry.

angel beware of times surrounding you of a world gone crazy and you in the middle where hearts become pained as eyes roll heavenward you cry at the mere thought of love forsaken angel beware of times surrounding you where lies become the accepted ways you no longer know the difference anymore you... Sign in to see full entry.

my words are for you they are for me to tell our story to send out the alarm to tell everyone that dont want to hear a story about alzheimers a threat to all please hear my words dont turn away this threat is to all you and me hear us out how our loved ones succumbed we cared it took its toll on us... Sign in to see full entry.

do i make you tremble with fear have i reached you are you willing to acknowledge who i am accept me know me for the being of the darkside that i am being trapped within the darkside ends who you are i take your whole being away from you...you become me what do i care what others may think about...i... Sign in to see full entry.

i had such feelings for him but he destroyed them with a selfish act of disregard for what i would feel he turned my world upside down inside out one single act of not thinking what i would feel with just a single act of disregard for me how id feel my world no longer includes his presence to save... Sign in to see full entry.

i have transcended the agony of alzheimers i have been where few want to tread walked in deaths shadow and back returned so others may not tremble at their turn death does not claim us only our loved ones we live with death on a daily basis knowing each day could be their last with alzheimers you... Sign in to see full entry.

knowing when to call it quits for hurt and bitterness letting pain go to heal allowing forgiveness to take charge that is when you know youve finally reached your growth hurt and pain causes bitterness to eat you alive till destroyed no matter what the abuse you have to let go of bitterness... Sign in to see full entry.

my mind travels through the past and present trying to understand certain events of my life sometimes i can see but most stay hidden from me the past does not let its secrets go easily but sometimes.... i dont dwell on most of them too much of that over does it but the hurt i caused my sons and... Sign in to see full entry.

i try to understand the complexity of my being why was i chosen to suffer with bi polar if there is a God it takes the randomness away then i ask why doe this disease exist for any of us my faith falters as i progress with each episode i cannot accept a loving God who allows for pain we are told how... Sign in to see full entry.