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" But then I think why couldn't he do that 15 years ago when it could have made a difference?" - you won't be the first to have asked that question, dear one.
posted by
mneme
on June 30, 2009 at 11:59 PM
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Indeed, pertinent questions that you are raising. And I think you need to
ensure that you are not just swayed by what's happening at the moment.
posted by
Straightforward
on June 27, 2009 at 9:10 PM
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Hey!
I am sorry for your hurt... i admire you for seeking happiness and not stifling your thoughts. you are well on your way to being happy-- no matter what that happiness entails. Just remember-- no matter what happens with him-- you are the only one that can make you happy. It has to be your decision, he can promise anything he wants he cant make you truly happy. Good luck:) i'll keep checking back!
posted by
gypsylove
on June 27, 2009 at 1:23 PM
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It can be hard and scary to break away...
but know that children are very smart. They don't just see what goes on, but they can easily sense what happens too.
Your children will be much happier living with a much happier you.
He is only being nice because he knows he's losing you. If he wasn't, it would be the same old, same old.
I have been in a similar situation in the past. I also didn't like to make someone "hurt", and it was hard for me to see for a while, and it was VERY difficult for him to understand why I wasn't hurting the way he was...but like you, I had been hurting and hurting for years and was past a lot of the pain and grieving for what I lost and was ready to move on.
Guilt doesn't ever serve you. 
Welcome to Blogit, by the way. 
posted by
Afzal_Sunny7
on June 26, 2009 at 8:39 PM
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posted by
hazel_st_cricket
on June 26, 2009 at 8:15 AM
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Tgif. Make it good grief in both death and a change to a single parent situation love. BCA, BillJRoost
posted by
BC-A
on June 26, 2009 at 7:21 AM
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