Eighty Thousand Cigarettes

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Friday, September 4, 2009

When the Dumbest Thing You Could Do Becomes the Dumbest Thing You Ever Did

Although I admit to being stupid enough to have driven drunk in the past, I am proud to announce that it is not something I do any longer. You think I would have given up the game long before I did, but everything they say about being young is true -- young people make bad decisions at bad moments. There are a handful of times I can remember driving (see, I couldn't have been that fucked up if I remember it) and having enough clarity to realize that I had no business doing it. It's not something... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, August 17, 2009

I've Got a New Nerd Crush and He Might Just Help the Man I Love

I stumbled upon Jonah Lehrer entirely thanks to Spenser. You see, as a conscientious cultivator and learned partaker, Spenser prides himself (like any professional would) on being up-to-date and in-the-know of issues surrounding his chosen profession. Thus, we have a subscription to High Times. High Times is the Playboy of pot magazines - it can be thoughtful, engaging, insightful and incredibly useful -- but it is still a magazine about taboo and therefore its advertiser's and even some of its... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

So What, I'm Still Doodling on Myself?

I have one tattoo - it was impulsive and therefore I drew meaning out of the designs that were on hand. The tattoo is of the man in the moon, and it is on my lower back. The meaning I assigned to it is that I could never find the man in the moon as a child, and my father was the first to point it out clearly enough so that I could see it. The moon also has a halo, which I think is pretty self-explanatory. Pretty much ever since that day, I've been debating another one. Part of me always knew... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Attention Well-Mannered Ladies of Blogit -- I Need Your Advice!

My boss is getting married this weekend. It is an evening wedding at a pretty swanky vineyard/Inn in wine country. The ceremony is outdoors (in the vineyard) at 6 pm, followed by hors d'œuvre s on the patio and dinner indoors. As you may have been able to glean, I am not a girly-girl. I own over 20 pairs of jeans, no slacks (my job is beyond business casual - I am wearing flip-flops, jeans and layered tanks at the moment) and 3 skirts. I have a bunch of dresses but I never wear them unless its... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

How to Approach a Stranger Online That You Used to Actually Know

I can't tell you how many times this has happened to me since the early days of 2003. I log onto my social networking account and am informed that I have a friend request. No personal note to say hi or refresh my memory, just a seemingly obligatory friend request. The picture looks vaguely familiar and I dredge my memory for them. Sometimes I find them in a class in high school or down the hall from me in college. Sometimes I draw a complete blank or know exactly who they are and wonder why they... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Now That's an Idea I Can Get Behind

Those special few of you that have been with me since the beginning know what Spenser has done in the past to make money, and mostly how I felt about it. For those of you who don't, I'll let you gossip amongst yourselves. The current endeavor of being a legal grower of marijuana in this here great state of California sits way better with me than the previous profession, but I still have my concerns - mainly the people that a business like this attracts. I'm not talking about bad people or "drug... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Time to Stop the Suicide

The title of my blog is, of course, 80,000 Cigarettes which is a rough estimate of how many cigarettes I've smoked in my life. Actually, that was three years ago, so we can tack on another 22,000 (20 cigs/day x 365 days/year x 3 years). I've been smoking since I was 12 years old and got into the way I assume a lot of kids do -- a hot guy. After school me, my best friend Ali and the most perfect 12-year-old boy you'd ever seen used to go sit under the trailers behind Woolworth's and smoke. I've... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, July 13, 2009

I Wonder if I'll Ever Have Him Properly Trained?

The common theme to all of my boyfriends before Spenser was that they were all my puppy dogs. My wish was their command, and while convenient and nice for a few minutes, it gets old fast. And along comes Spenser. True, he hounded (har-har, I'm so funny) be for years before I agreed to go out with him and he is an excellent person and a considerate boyfriend most of the time - but then there's those other times when he seems to forget that he is in a relationship at all. He takes off and does his... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Taking Out The Garbage

My mother was dating a man named Mark for about 12 years, the latter 8 of which they were living together. Mark has two sons, one a fully-functioning, productive and enlightened member of society that I only saw when he came into town on holidays and such, and then there's the 'other' one. The other one is named Jeremy and is a few years older than I am. When Mark first moved in, Jeremy was living in Colorado with his girlfriend and I was living at my aunt's house. They came back from CO and got... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, July 10, 2009

See, It's a Good Thing I Never Let Him Open My Sugar Packet

It was my freshman year of college and fairly early into the start where people in the freshman dorm were still starting to get to know each other. I had a crush on my RA for about 5 minutes and was returning from his room to mine, where there were about 5 people mingling. As I walked in the door, I noticed a guy staring at the side of my closet/cubby where I had taped up a bunch of pics of me, my friends and artists I liked. He turned around and the first words out his mouth were, "Wow... you... Sign in to see full entry.

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