I won't fight to have the prize. I won't bring out the claws to scratch and tear for what I want, no. Last time I checked it wasn't a damned game. You want it, have it...I'm a little confused at the moment so I'm just going to post an old entry from when I was 19. You never realise how important... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Friday, August 17, 2007
Why don’t you whisper what they sell you, like cheap heroin? There was always a drug for these days; alcohol, sex…the blood that fell from your wrists. Now you need more, a bigger hit. Can’t help but breathe in the thunderous skies, lick the lightning and watch it flash in the burnt out ridges of... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
THE SCARS OF WHO I AM
Was there never a time when you wished these rotten scars away? That you prayed to be rid of the searing memories? Oh but I tried. For every night that I lay down and beg for the scabs of my wounds to vanish, there were just as many that the hunger for them thrived. Just as many where I looked with... Sign in to see full entry.
WHAT I NEED
I think all I need right now is to dream and wish today away. But isn't that always the same? I'm over this town, over the proximity and lack of freedom that comes with that. I'm 23, I've been living on my own for 7 years now...It's my life. How I choose to live it, the mistakes I choose to make are... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
A WHISPER
Here lies the whispered wind of days long gone. I find in me a longing for days that passed and sidestepped me with a bitter breath. I wonder some days if I am okay. Wonder how long I can hold such a charade up for. I still have locked in my mind all those days of insanity. The scurry like filthy... Sign in to see full entry.
HOW SHOULD I KNOW?
As night dribbles and twirls, the stars grow and beat alive, I've no choice but to cry in defeat. Some days that's all I need, to let the moment wash over me. To drown in the seconds that have unfairly strangled and hung me. I watch the asinine fool, tripping on his own feet; I watch and I laugh. Oh... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
I'M NOT SURE
You'd think the days would be easier with age. Yet it seems that with every hour passed through I lose more of what I want to hold. Nobody told me that you would lose more of your heart the older you became. That the people who left footprints on the fragile carpet of your soul would pass and die... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, August 6, 2007
19!!!!!!
I want to tell you all today about a freaky phenomenon in my family. I am not lying and I can back myself up if need be. The number 19. I kid you not about this. Okay…are you all ready? I was born on the 19 th and I have had a pretty rough trot, had to learn a lot of hard lessons early on. It has... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, August 5, 2007
ANOTHER DAY TO TO FADE AWAY
He was the man of my dreams… once. Many moons ago beneath the stars of youthful exuberance. I loved him more than I was ever willing to admit to anyone. Yet it was such a poorly crafted relationship. I needed a roof over my head, he offered it to me. Everybody picked on him, even to his face and I... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
A PLAY FOR YOU
The following is a play I wrote when I was 19....it won runner up in a state wide play writing compititon a couple of years back. It is long, simply because it has all the stage directions. I was given the chance when I went back and finished school at 20 to produce it in a local talent show. I won... Sign in to see full entry.