Monday, May 3, 2010
WORDS DANCING AROUND IN MY HEAD: SWIRLING AND WEAVING AND SWAYING BACK AND FORTH: I CAN'T GET THEM OUT FAST ENOUGH; MY HEAD IS RUNNING FASTER THAN I CAN TYPE: DO I WRITE? OR DO I REMAIN SILENT? WORDS ARE OUR GIFT TO THE WORLD; OUR OWN SELF-EXPRESSION IS OUR PASSPORT TO FREEDOM: I AM JUST A RAT IN A... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
RAINDROPS
Raindrops are falling in my head. Can't stop them. They're my inner tears. I'm like a hamster on a wheel. Taking a cocktail of medications to make the raindrops disappear. They're still there. Been there for 5 years. I can't stop them. Me-the hamster on the wheel, Just keep breathing until it's time... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, February 19, 2010
SALVATION AND ART
"Give me salvation", she cried The desire to express and release her feelings deep within Her life is her canvas Her brushes are the tools she uses to transcend into her fantasy world Her paints are the vehicle through which she puts her passion on paper Her art is her soul "Give me salvation", she... Sign in to see full entry.
HEALED
I awoke from a crazy dream I was healed Self-saboage was a thing of the past My long hair swayed in the wind I structured my day with ease I deeply connected with my 11 month-old baby Anais I chose my favorite clothes which were a perfect reflection of me I was strong, uninhibited and carefree My... Sign in to see full entry.
CHOCOLATE
Sitting with strangers eating chocolate, smoking cigarettes, and drinking coffee to pass the time away. Asking trivia questions to alleviate the boredom. Waiting...waiting...waiting... for our names to be called, to be put in the hands of the Masters we call Doctors. As fate would have it we spin... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
SENSATIONS
SENSATIONS IN MY HEAD WHIRLING AROUND LIKE A TORNADO: I AM CAUGHT IN THE EYE OF THE STORM; SEARCHING FOR MY CENTER:::THE PLACE WHERE I FIND PEACE: THEY WON'T LET ME OUT UNATTENDED:::I AM LIKE A RAT IN A CAGE; DESPERATELY SEACHING FOR A WAY OUT; FOR MY CENTER; FOR MY SANITY: THE ROAD SEEMS LONG AND... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, February 12, 2010
DAYS AND NIGHTS
I've gone through the darkness and I'm searching for the light. Caught within mysef, inside a prison of my own making. Help me find the way out. I feel trapped, wounded, and hopeless. Show me life's beauty and help me find my passion for life once again. Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, February 5, 2010
CHICKEN WITHOUT A HEAD
Everything is swirling around inside, going so fast, can't catch up. All over the place yet nowhere at the same time. Grey skies reveal the sadness within. The loneliness envelops me like a cloak. I stand transparent, vulnerable and lost. Want to find my way back from the chaos. Opening the door to... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
WHERE YOU ARE
Not sure where to go, don't know what to do. The darkness beckons me and I turn to the light for solace. Pain and joy go hand in hand, I live in no-man's land. It's cold here and I search for you. Where are you? Out there? In me? In all of us? I contemplate the meaning of life and get too deep for... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
MOVING AROUND
All caught up with moving around. Used to live in self-help and moved to journal. Liking my new home. Still want to help, me, you, all of us, as much over here as there. And if I'm here can't I still technically be there? Smoked too many cigarettes today, took a tranquilizer, lost my way. Thinking... Sign in to see full entry.