THE WINDOW INSIDE MY SOUL: MY POETRY& STORIES

see the sun as is fades and shines against my face, longing to be seen, praying to be one with the constant hope of everyone, only words can scream at the earth in bitterness and sarrow drains from the leaks, and begs to be forgiven in the pale moonlight, of our ancestors loins and their minds burning a hole in ones heart when they turn a blind eye to what is suppose to there destiny, long necks turn and turn and they no longer seek help from the ones that guided them so safely onto the planets... Sign in to see full entry.

Laid back and half driven to the point where my bitterness lies, there is no remorse, no happiness that lingers in the darkness, and it's gone in the blink of an eye. Tired and Lost all self doubt, wondering where the next chapter in my life will take me, Concerned about everyone else, but myself of course... isn't that how it's suppose to go? Who am I? Confused by my own self pitty... tangled in the sarrows of the world, shattered and bruised... no longer striving to be my best at everything,... Sign in to see full entry.

Everytime I look into your eyes I see a glimpse of hope, a glimpse of love, the bitterness that eats my soul, the loss of someone becoming whole As time moves on, but still I stand this loneliness is becoming my second chance, Everytime I look at you, you remind me of all the good times, all the good laughs, and the memories we shared... it's hard to think of what will happen, now that your not here. Still the tears fall, and still my heart is calling for you, because you are no longer here...... Sign in to see full entry.

Time ticks and I'm feeling like I'm losing myself losing the best of me to a stranger someone that I don't even know it's scares me-- I feel like I'm falling and letting my emotions grip the handle bars of life and shattering blistering--the pain of letting go. It's too much to take in, and it's too much look up in sarrows eyes into ones soul and salvage enough strength and courage to do it all again... I can't face up to myself I can't face that wind the strong current is blasting my bones, and... Sign in to see full entry.

It is my soul that blinds me, it is my heart that frees me, it is my love that confindes me, lingers over the morning dew, drowning on the sarrows on another day, deepened thoughts and cloudy summers, leave me in a whirlwind of emotions the yearning calls out my name... the wind screams for me, but I never come never come to its beckoning afraid of what it will bring and whether it will be my last breath, whether it will be my last morrow... whether the darkness will take me, swallow my whole... Sign in to see full entry.

Time frezzes my heart coldness burns in my soul my fingertips brush your face hoping for some kind of miracle of the 'only if's' and wondering if they will only make sense my lungs burn and I scream under my breath, I scream for you only you can never hear. I'm locked in this box, sufficating and lingering with the will to live on but what is the use, if I don't have you next to me. This loneiness is straining a whole in me, this present tense nonesess is getting the best of me. Help me finger... Sign in to see full entry.

The wind tosses and my heart soars my spirit lingers and my mind speaks my soul screams this pain I'm used to felling but my body is hallow I can't take this any longer the darkness is sufficating me, choking for air the tension is thick my body can't function, I can't go on... without him by my side the sun is longer sunny, and my heart just cant go on Lord help me find my way... so I can go on another day. Sign in to see full entry.

Chapter 4: Since you’ve been gone [Roswell New Mexico….August 26 2012 - 8:23AM] Max POV Well I arrived in Roswell late last night, which was a lot later than I had planned. The driver of the U Haul truck got lost, and I had to go navigate him back on right road. That itself took an extra three hours. Being back in Roswell has its up- and downsides. An upside is that I already know everyone… a downside would be that I only live ten minutes away from my parents. Well, I guess that’s a general... Sign in to see full entry.

Chapter 3: Breaking Up Is Hard To Do *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* [Roswell, New Mexico… August 24, 2012 10:45PM] Liz POV I’m still amazed at the fact that we actually got into the Red Signal. Now before you ask me what the hell the Red Signal is… it’s the hottest club in all of New Mexico. And we got in! Knowing Kyle, I initially figured he would suggest sneaking in, but I was shocked to find out that we didn’t even have to wait in line—he gave his name and the bouncer just let us... Sign in to see full entry.

Chapter Two: Two Faced [Boston….August 24, 2012] Max POV “I don’t think that jumping off the roof was a very smart thing to do, Jimmy”, I tell my nine year old patient as he tries to tell me how he got into the mess that he’s in. I really try not to laugh. “Hey, you weren’t there! If I hadn’t jump off, I would have been the laughing stock of the entire class. I was dared… I had to do it! I didn’t want to be known as a chicken for the rest of my life”, the young boy says. I’m really impressed by... Sign in to see full entry.

Summary: After high school everyone spilt to do there own things... Liz and Maria became Registered Nurses at the local hospital in Roswell, While still helping her parents out at the crashdown from time to time, Kyle joined the Marines. and has been with Liz off and on for the past 9 yrs., Alex and Isabel eloped and got married right after high school. Alex is a Lawyer, and they live in New York. Michael also lives in New York, and is also a lawyer and works with Alex. Max and Tess have been... Sign in to see full entry.

Im just so tired, tired of all the lies, and wondering why... why can't I be free from you, every time I think I have, you drag me back in. You were the one to say Good-Bye, and yet you are the to crawl back, Like a fool I give in, thinking that maybe this time, you will get it and give in take hint and notice that everything is not alright, I want to throw a fit every time you call me up, and beg for another chance, but i'm the one with no will, because I am always the one to cave in. I feel... Sign in to see full entry.

Inside this saddness that clouds my soul this bitterness that lingers on my tounge A pressing hole in my heart I feel transparent, Everyone around me looks through me as if I'm not even there, This hurts my every essence-- but I stay strong because it's become a routine that I face every day... Everyday I get up, and I don't expect to be seen, because that's just how it has been for years, but that ended when I met you. you saw me, and I felt whole again-- Like this light was burnt out, and you... Sign in to see full entry.

I've been oh so sad for a long time, I've almost gave up when I was sixteen years old, ahh...normal sixteen year old girls can't think of anything but boys, cars, and all the good times with there friends. And me... all I could think about was how much I wanted to kill myself, for a long time no one knew, I hid it very well--I felt my depression filling every part of me, and I just wanted to drown in it, and wish that my breathing would just stop, and the world would be free of me. I thought... Sign in to see full entry.

No Ordinary Love [Nine years ago...Both POV] My car broke down two blocks away from the campus, this is just great...a new state, new town, and new people. Well, I guess you could say that I’m the new person. Out of all the colleges that I got accepted to, I choose UNM. I know, even my parents were floored by the decision. I grew up in sunny Oceanside, California. My dad is in the United States Marine Corps, we’ve been all over the country—even New Mexico at one time but it was only for a year.... Sign in to see full entry.