THE WINDOW INSIDE MY SOUL: MY POETRY& STORIES

I want to scream with all my might I want to break the walls with my strength I want to tear all this pain to shreds I want you to suffer because I did I don't want to cry till I feel numb I don't want to love you anymore I don't want to sink back into that black hole I don't want to feel empty anymore I don't want to be loved by anyone Without you I feel empty Without you I can't go on Without you I can't breathe Without you I can't be strong Without you I don't know how to get back Without you... Sign in to see full entry.

It might be nice to rise and fall, like a roller coaster with swirls and drops, I loved you, I did... I loved you, and it was true. But I got a rude awakening, on a crisp fall afternoon. I thought of you as my world, the one I could run to with anything, I thought you'd always be there for me, but I was wrong...oh how I was wrong. You were done with me, and I still loved you. You said your good-byes, and all I could do was play along. I thought you were the one, the one I'd spent all my life... Sign in to see full entry.

In the oceans widest of blues, there lays my soul--right next to you, you look and glare, but still nothing gets said-- you wait for my quiet slumber to be over. I'm not ready to wake up from this dream of mine, but you want to rise to the surface and claim what isn't yours--but still you dont care. you take, and take until there isn't anything but fear, and that's why I feel small around you, because you don't see anyone else but yourself, When are you going to wake up and realize that life... Sign in to see full entry.

**I broke up with my boyfriend a week ago...and this is my exprience...that I wrote off the top of my head...to let people know...that if you fall get back up...and keep walking.* The passion that burns in me is overwhelming, and I can no longer resist that my heart is pounding so furiously, went am I going to let you? My tears sneak up on me, but only in my dreams it's easier to cry that way in the night, my sarrow is still painfully there... and I don't know how to let you go. Everyday gets... Sign in to see full entry.

Love isn't all fairtales, and princes and kings roses in bloom the truest of love, loves...it's not what it's cracked up to be There are no sweet kisses, and no one romances, white doves with starry nights you wish upon, and heros that save the damsel in distress, this is all made up...in fairytale land, where everyone lives happily ever after, and everyone is grand and great, where does reality settle in? Where is the 20th centry? Where is the modern woman... who doesn't need a prince charming... Sign in to see full entry.

I can't look in the mirror the face I see looking back at me, isn't mine I don't know her-- where did I go? My vision is blury...but the girl looking back at me isn't crying she's stone blank no emotion no passion nothing where did the real me go? Where did I got lost? I want to smash the glass with my fist... I want to sob out loud I want to scream at the top of my lungs but no one will hear me... I touch the mirror... but the reflection doesn't do the same I'm scared of what I'm becoming... Sign in to see full entry.

Time ticks on and my heart is aching my heart is sobing and I am screaming silent screams echo the midnight air I gasp... I'm sufficating I am broken smashed and stopped to pieces and I feel so empty so alone and so little that I can't get up I can't move leave me alone that's all I want don't save me don't be the hero I just need to scream and rip out my heart because this black void needs to be filled before I go mad and crazy and I feel like my world is going to end I feel blue and black and... Sign in to see full entry.

I thought I found the one, you know...the one everyone hopes to find, On one fine and glorous day, where your eyes will lock and get butterflies fluttering around, weak to your knees with anticipation and longing, and for some reason you'll know...deep down inside That, that person is the one for you. But it's those first few glances and glimpses into love, that urges you to continue soul searching, for your perfect match. The one that completes you, inside and out. But it's not all romance and... Sign in to see full entry.

The seasons change and I can feel my emotions going, North, South, East, and West Changing the winds that I was once afraid of, I was afraid of all the small things, I was young and naive, but I am slowly but surely becoming my own. A new woman--that is determined, I am set to make something of myself, no matter the work, the blood, the sweat, the tears, I am changing. As the season changes yet again, I am standing on my own, I am standing strong, I am ready to fight, to be more mature.. and... Sign in to see full entry.

Determined It is my heart that keeps me from looking back, at my past...but it is that very thing that scares me. Oh so many times, my throat starts to clench up and tears start to form, my hands grow shaky and my limbs grow weak. My anxiety level shoots up, and my mood is bleek. I am not myself, when this happens It feels like no one, because the darkness clouds around me, sometimes I can just shake it off, while other times--I have to talk myself out of the more insane moments, I don't care to... Sign in to see full entry.

I was young and naive--but I always thought I was wise, I've never been the average girl, and never had that many boyfriends... not like my older sister--I was jelous of that, but I accepted my fate. It took me eighteen years to learn how to rebel against my parents, they were and still are very strict. A mexican household--a household full of women, well besides my dad--everyone feels sorry for him. But I learned my values, my manners, my pose from my parents. My mom is very wise beyond her... Sign in to see full entry.

Everytime Every day,The sun calls out you name like a whispher in the summer wind...saddness fills the night...sarrow fills my soul. Everytime they mention your name I am reminded of that night. That night when you loved me, that night when our lives changed forever. Forever was suppose to mean eternity but got cut short because of bitterness took it's course. Everytime you told me you love me.. that was just a lie. Everytime I said I was sorry...that was a lie. Everytime...Everyday I remember... Sign in to see full entry.