Six Generations of First Born Women

7:30 a.m. a call from Mr. Hoagheem, the assistant superintendent of the Newton Public Schools. He tells me I owe them $6,000 to keep Erika in school. If I don't cough up $4,000 immediately, she'll be out by a week from today. I'm angry at myself for getting in to this fix. The story goes like this.... Sign in to see full entry.

RG again tries calling his mom in Rock Springs. We'd tried numerous times over the past few months and never made contact. While we don't often speak to her, this is more than unusual. We know she's been very low, depressed, for good reason. Her daughter, RG's sister, died of cancer this summer. I... Sign in to see full entry.

I spoke to Robin this evening. It's the first time I've heard his voice since that "unpleasant" experience about 2 weeks ago. He had no clear point in mind when he called. It was just a desire to reestablish a connection. Talk was O.K. There was some tension in him, nervousness. I could feel it.... Sign in to see full entry.

An extremely warm, out of season day for November. I felt it coming this morning, under the covers with RG. The heat hadn't come on during the night and it was warm in the room. Yesterday I had a hard time getting up. We spent most of the day in bed. Now, devoid of energy, no desire to do anything.... Sign in to see full entry.

What a week...One of the most emotionally intense times I have ever known with everyone I've known; Erika, Mom, Robin, my father, at work, but mostly the difficulty is inside myself. This morning with RG, he and I, when the air is charged, stuff happens. When things are good between us, it is the... Sign in to see full entry.