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Monday, March 15, 2010

This is where I was a year ago...

"Clear!" I want my heart to move to stir-- to be touched into excitement, to pangs of poignancy... I want the world to thrill me, make me laugh, delight me, inspire me to dance, to sing aloud, to share, to give from my own open heart... to reach out, touching other hearts grown stiff and cold to bring them back to life, to light-- where all our hearts began. Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Trapped by cat

After spending the morning in bed with laptop fired up, photos processing, words flowing... I am ready to get up. It is noon and really, I have things to do... there is even blue sky visible through the curtain, through the last-of-winter, earliest-spring woods... I was about to get up. Really, I was. Then it happened. As it so often does. Violetta Scampercat appeared like magic on the bed... nestled down along side me, and began to purr. She is content. She is warm. She is next to the Primary... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, March 11, 2010

what to do with a lamb shank

The one that was in my freezer came out today and somehow fell into a pot of boiling water... along with an onion and a half, and half an eggplant and some celery. Herbs leaped in after--garlic, oregano and tarragon, and some turmeric powder (had no rosemary, too bad!)... soy sauce and some sweet sherry, and finally, a dash of white balsamic vinegar. Olive oil and a can of tomato basil soup went in, too. And after long simmering, meat and bone parting company without resistance, it went into a... Sign in to see full entry.

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photos of fantasies

I have mentioned before what my son and his friends get up to one weekend a month. I have compiled a few portraits of these Live Action Role Players in full regalia. Some... Twemlo, for one... are my son. http://www.flickr.com/photos/therovingeye/sets/72157623600652828/ Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Transitions continue...

Today I have done mostly two things. First, I watched a pair of National Geographic dvds called CHINA: BEYOND THE CLOUDS. It is a beautiful documentary with sensitive and low-key narration, and the filming so unobtrusive that the people seem utterly unselfconscious throughout. The location is a small town in Yunnan Province, along the Yangtse River where it descends from Tibet, and flows on towards China's eastern coast some 2500 miles away. The events were filmed in 1991. I recommend it very... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Transitions... continue!

Makeover... modern version of Fairy Godmother's wand-effects. One can expect too much. And yet... Sometimes, changing something basic and long-accepted, is just the thing for getting a transition underway. Other times, it is a way to anchor transitions already accomplished. So... I have dyed my hair. OMG! WHAT??? You have gone UN-NATURAL? umm... Yes. I have gone... un-natural. It isn't like I never colored up before, but then there was no question of maybe trying to cover grey... It was... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, March 1, 2010

How does this happen?

I got up to go make a cup of tea. I ended up with a reservation for a 9-day tour of Baja California, and a cup of tea. The Green Tortoise started some 40 years ago, a funky old bus that parked and picked up passengers only a few miles from where I now live, on its way from Seattle to San Francisco. It was an 'outlaw' bus company, when Trailways and Greyhound had between them tied up the official bus routes across America. They grew into a sort of alternative-lifestyle touring bus company with... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, February 25, 2010

Who Needs Mental Health?

As mentioned before, I have given some thought to renewing my acquaintance with lithium, to help batten down the moods that for a while were swinging like... dare I say?... crazy. Sure, why not...? In couple of days prior, I'd caught up on the current thinking on CPTSD and was glowing with the thrill of finally, finally, hearing that cosmic 'click!' Doctor-like person being wary of just saying yes to the old perscription insisted I need to confer first with the Behavioral Health Department of... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, February 18, 2010

MRI

MRI results are in... apparently everything is where and as it is supposed to be... Happy to report no alien appliances anywhere in sight. Worries as they so often do, lead to anticlimactic sense of good news. Funny how that works... the anticlimax is, of course, an illusion: that the news is good, is in fact good news. Thanks to you all who gave support when a happy outcome was not so certain! Apparently all your blessings and good vibes cured the tumah, evaporated the alien implant, and healed... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, February 16, 2010

More on Complex PTSD

Since writing about PTSD last week, and more specifically, about C-PTSD, I have done some further reading. I had only just discovered in researching for that post, the description of Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. and saw it was relevant and more specific to my own life. Today I found this article by Pete Walker which gives the most complete and coherent picture yet: http://www.pete-walker.com/managingAbandonDepression.htm It is not a short piece, but it is worth giving some time.... Sign in to see full entry.

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I'm doubtful the events of my life will be of great general interest, but I'd like to share a little more of me to the several of you on Blogit I've come to feel are real friends, and the many I imagine are potentially real friends. We'll see how it works out. ______________________ all my words and images posted on Blogit are copyright 2005-present, all rights reserved.

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