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the way to deCease how weiRd the way i've needed to make myself siCk since i've met you it hasn't been much better eXCept for the first weeks then i took you to soMe deep uNdergRounds to soMe hell i'M hating i thought yOu would heal me & i made yOu siCk wHat way can we take could yOu hOld my hand... Sign in to see full entry.

rest in peaCe i'M so cOld i'M so siCk i'd rather die then feel this way my head's warM & i'd like yOu to hold me but yOu're asleep last night i needed yOur arMs around me but yOu didn't hear my call now i'd like to sleep in a bed & be covered with warM blankets i'd like to sleep all day long & sTay... Sign in to see full entry.

dreaM of reality i onCe fell in love with a dreaM & this dreaM caMe tRue for it was not a dreaM only a proJeCtion in a coMing reality i did not see the pain i'd grow iNsIde this life i did not see the needs i'd creaTe pain & agOny aRe such a cRuel coMpany but i never seeM to let theM go © pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.

rainy morning i'd like to be in a cOrner hidden from everyoNe to stop seeing theM & only stare at the rain covering the gRound. i'd like to sMell the suMmer rain early in the morning sitting under a tRee gReen & high sTrong enough to proteCt me from the sTorM. i'd like to see long liNes of light in... Sign in to see full entry.

wHen deAth asTounds there's an iNvisiBle cry out is the meMory of my miNd those people around me i can't hear theM my liFe is full of lOve but today, iT's nowhere i can't find a reason the pain of my body is too sTrong. i can't deCide what to do there are so many sOunds my head reverberates the... Sign in to see full entry.

falling dOwn i'M in a self desTruCt mode i'd be gOne iF only my miNd was clear i can't sTand myself i can feel the siCkness iT's wrong iF i could kill myself i'M waiting silenCe is nowHere i'M eChoing the viOlenCe yet only toward myself my miNd huRts my body too iT's everywHere & i can't know i... Sign in to see full entry.

trauMa, unknOwn everything seeMs deadly wrong since i caMe baCk i'M getting siCk i'M feeling wrOng i can't find myself & i'M not craving for making myself siCk. i don't know where to sTart i don't even know if there's soMething to sTart i don't know where to go i'M not feeling right. this sHort... Sign in to see full entry.

being baCk for a while i could deal with so many things during those 2 weeks on the rOad so different from my usual journeys tough difficult cOld my miNd has a hard tiMe dealing with everything i can't sit sTill anymore & i'M feeling intoXiCated i only want to feel peaCe iNsIDe. all those faCes in... Sign in to see full entry.

fiRst moRning, baCk in paRis i had an odd dreaM last night that i can't reMeMber. haunting & dark is all i can recall. i had an odd feeling before i fell asleep i needed hiM to hOld me tight. making lOve was such a delight it was like having been deprived for weeks i'M loving hiM so much. then now... Sign in to see full entry.

wHen miseRy sTrikes my belly huRts i'M in deep pain i can't sTay for ever far from civiliZation iT'll take me forever to catch up with it all my belly swells my EyEs are falling i'd like to sleep for days & maybe just never waKe up. © pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.