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meMory aRises mOMent of violenCe viOlenCe of a meMory what i'M uRging to forget wHat i forgot wHat i'M daily fOrgeTting viOlent meMory of viOlent thoughts of viOlent aCtions meMories of the past wHat couldn't tell wHat i cannot say asPhyXia of the mind what i'M dying to forget wHat i'M dying to... Sign in to see full entry.

So back on the road again... at last! After several weeks spent in paris, we eventually made it back in our travels. Of course the parisian time was not that bad since it gave me the opportunity to go to several events such as the gay, lesbian, bisexual & transexual pride parade, a die in against... Sign in to see full entry.

1516 they aRe all enJoying soMe tiMe outside playing with their kiDs, reading, or talking to eaChotHer. iT's warM even though the sun is not aRound the sKy is gREy & so is my miNd. old & yOung peOple sitting in the saMe aRea my miNd was is pain wHen i wOke up now iT's dying to be away to see new... Sign in to see full entry.

paInful days i'M feeling so siCk reMinisCenCe of the stupid things i've doNe i'M in pain & my miNd is bluRry i'd like to feel happy i'd love to be oK i'M about to leave with the lOve of my liFe & i'M feeling like sHit the jOuRney of my liFe is right behind the doOr & i'M feeling out iT seeMs... Sign in to see full entry.

sHe's paIn i'M listening to this aNgRy conversatiOn & iT's taking me dOwn this woMan feels so sad & needs to sHout. sHe's suffered so much it seeMs the look on her faCe sHe's not beautiful anymOre the pain eraZed it all she seeMs so old now. ©pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.

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a look in the EyEs i caught this look in the EyEs perveRse the kiNd of man i used to like playing with sMaRt or playful wHo i've found aTtraCtive who i would have lOved to own for a wHile. iT's only the look in his EyEs that made me feel the past eMotions i used to like the only look in his EyEs... Sign in to see full entry.

in the cOloR of sOunds iT's feeling right sTaying in heLl sOmetiMEs my body was frOZen last night i'M so tiRed of all that i'M doing iF only i could sCreaM & feel frEe again like i never did befOre gReen sHould be the right colOr ©pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.

few sOunds the sOunds i can hear aRe tOrtuREd & painful the sCreaMs are lOud & reMind me of the mistake i made i didn't mean to huRt yOu i only need yOur love & aCt as if i didn't mind but i only pretend maybe i'M afRaid of losing yOu but i won't tell beCause i caRe too much about yOu. oNe more... Sign in to see full entry.

a sHoRt wHile i'd like to taKe the tiMe to be ouTsiDe by myself for a shOrt wHile repeAting mistakes a little while sOmetiMe just now then sTop & never do it again ©pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.