i think ive always been misunderstood id explain myself if i could but i jus dont know what has transpired for awhile i wanted to die there but that shouldnt b the case ive been blessed in so many ways jus cuz some imperfections arise does not mean myself i have to despise it is true that you live... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
with every little itch on my skin i feel satan trying to tempt me within trying to lead me to sin Father help me resist the temptation bless me with purification and guide me to jubilation Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Father whats going on jus when i start to feel strong dark black thoughts come along and i wonder things like do i belong am i really that different is my body seriously sick then i try to tell myself nah dont trip life aint easy hardships are part of it but i always tend to reminisce on younger... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
life is what you make it no need for self-hatred put all negative thoughts aside and b optimistic on this ride always try to b kind to all dont let pride b your downfall smile, laugh, reminisce, cherish happy moments exercise, cry, inquire why, look to the sky thank God for all your blessings and... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, January 14, 2008
what a beautiful night stars is all so bright perfect temperature outside back in the day woulda taken a joyride now i jus stare and reminisce and wish every moment had this peacefulness Sign in to see full entry.
sometimes i sit and question this life always trying to do right trying to find my place and give meaning to each day im thankful for everything i got cuz its more than that of a lot and i jus wait for the day that Youll take me away i cant imagine the beauty of heaven until then ill dream within i... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
revelation
man what a beautiful day watching the green trees sway and the sun set in its own special way i feel like ive been set free no more feelings of misery and no more focusing only on me its like the weight has been lifted God temporarily unwrapped me then regifted my sights and thoughts have shifted i... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
more lows from '05 & plz dont worry i assure u im better now & ty 4 readin
what the hell do i do now just feel so shallow like my life has no meaning bring into question my very being i have no urges or desires if i had a trigger i jus might fire put one in my dome send me to my eternal home i wish i knew where i went astray cuz i f&8king hate living this way i jus want to... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, January 11, 2008
when i started hitting some lows...
its tru you dont realize what you got til its gone i cant believe ive kept goin on well its either that or die and nowadays i cant even cry its like im a stone watching life pass by what has happened to me i aint been the same since fall '03 thats for damn sure i dont know what anything is anymore... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
they say adversity makes you stronger but Lord how much longer i know i really shouldnt complain several others have much greater pain i pray that You can heal us all as we continue to scratch and claw through the rough times we are dealt grant us all prosperity and good health Sign in to see full entry.