everything outside is nice and green makes me wonder how i can ever b angry when surrounded by so much beauty cant believe im close to getting my degree although im still not sure what i want to b i really neednt worry afterall God has great things in store i jus need to live for each day and... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
wow! we in the '07 now and as of now i plan to vow to not waste any more time in this life of mine like playing stupid games online cuz no doubt i need to find what it is i love to do cuz i aint getting any younger damn near twenty-two sure i have regrets but life aint over yet so i gotta make the... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, February 4, 2008
from 12/24/06
Christmas eve and its like 60 degrees blame global warming or the unpredictable northeast? i really dont know but it doesnt feel like xmas thats for sho and unfortunately it loses its luster as you grow however having kids would definitely restore that glow but what its really about is the birth of... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
in light of a recent event...
heard there were 2 women with Down syndrome taken advantage of as innocent victims in a horrendous plot beyond their wisdom where unassuming souls met their untimely death and nothing was accomplished except greater unrest and we can only pray that there is no next please Father help to unravel this... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Father thank you so much for my family mom, dad, and 2 sisters that care bout me ive been blessed indeed i know i dont tell them much but i love them all very much i thank my mom for raising me right and always trying to keep my thoughts bright i thank my dad for keenful insight and keeping us... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
today i felt on the verge of insanity flipping out over vanity but it jus gets so frustratin seeing virtually no improvement in my skin which is why i get super pissed when i should try to b more optimistic but seeing no change in about 3 years sometimes almost brings me to tears i jus wanna feel... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
dear heavenly Father thank you for another day i ask for forgiveness for my anger and rage which i allow to build in me much too often this heart of mine please let it soften Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
you know its not worth being angry over things you cant control simply gotta take those thoughts and feelings and put them on hold cuz to find personal bliss is a wisemans gold jus gotta work with what youve been given and always try to improve your state of living and forget grudges learn about... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, January 28, 2008
whenever i hear sirens i pray for those in need and for emergency crews to get there safely sure some others jus ignore them mindlessly but i cant help but feel some sympathy and i believe that thats jus the real me unfortunately i put up a tough outer wall if you will in order to deny myself to... Sign in to see full entry.
jus how i felt at the time (9/23/06)...it was scary to read it again
ever since i arrived at the university it seems ive been coupled with adversity freshman year my thoughts were dark accompanied with a troubled heart thoughts of suicide always nearby some nights before bed i would cry and angrily ask God why why the f&*k did i deserve this then i would pray for Him... Sign in to see full entry.