Friday, February 3, 2006
The Saga of Mike Continues...
“Where have I been? Are you OK?” I do appreciate the concern of so many of you. I will borrow from an e-mail I wrote in response. It should tell you where I’ve been! I am GREAT now, BTW! I finally got the closure I'd been seeking. Mike let me say goodbye. With dignity. Let me digress to last Friday, January 27, 2006. I sent him an e-mail asking for closure and would he call me? I just wanted some acknowledgement that he had read my e-mail and that I he just acknowledged me. He ignored me, so I...
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Monday, January 30, 2006
It Is Time to Turn the Page
I got it all out on paper and came up with the stepford husband theory. For some reason, I found it very cathartic to recognize his wife was "a controlling manipulative woman" and that he was in the process of being re-programmed. That was when I realized I was lucky not to have been any more involved in their family dynamics that I was. The kids never knew about me and that was just as well! Then when I got the "epiphany" yesterday of what love would do, and I wrote the letter to Mike's wife. I...
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Sunday, January 29, 2006
a Farewell poem to Michael
Dedicated to Angela for giving me courage To call it for what it is day for epiphany love not a coward Thanks for dropping me a line because it shows you care, Although I cannot see you, at least I know you're there. I think you're right, I cared for him more than he cared for me, It's time for me to write him off, my love no more shall he Take lightly yet politely with his words my heart abuse, For in the world of sweet romance I bitterly refuse to be taken for granted, my gift he did not seek....
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Friday, January 27, 2006
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Tomato Soup & Tuna Fish Samiches
Tomato Soup & Tuna Fish Samiches Mike and I experienced many “firsts” with each other. I will never forget one first in 1972, in which he made me a very happy woman. It was the first time I had been to Mike’s apartment, the first one of several to follow after moving out of his scholarship hall. It was only a block away from his old hall, so that meant I could hoof it there in no time. “He must be between girlfriends,” I thought, since he had called to see what I was doing. I hadn’t seen ‘ol...
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Our First Cyber-Date
Our First Cyber-Date Mike invited me on a date. The only problem was that it had to be 1500 miles apart. Did that make it a cyber date? He told me that Baskin-Robbins (BR) was having a promotion for their 10th anniversary. If you went to their website, there was a coupon for a free BR ice-cream cone. He asked, if my schedule and diet permitted, if I would get an ice-cream cone with him that day? “Surely my little town had a BR,” he had chided in one of his e-mails. The BR in our little town had,...
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Monday, January 23, 2006
“Let’s Think More About That Parking Lot . . .”
The canoe trip marked one of our many “firsts.” We also discussed sky-diving and had a mutually unforgettable experience in a parking lot, with God, the Goddess and anyone from Lawrence, Kansas who happened to be there as witnesses. I told Mike I’d been nervous about jumping right into discussing our one-time “hot” relationship from college days. After all, we had both been married to other people for over 25 years. I knew how I would feel if Jay’s old girlfriend came back into his life with...
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
Splendor in the Feathers
“Splendor in the Grass” would come at the top of Mt. Borel, CA, in October. 2005. Now it was only the 3rd week of our getting reacquainted via e-mail and the pictures and stories, bringing us up to date with each other, were being exchanged at a furious rate. One of the most vivid memories of the sweet, early days with my mikey, the boy from college with long wavy hair, was in a tent after a hard day of shooting swollen rapids on a fast Missouri river. It had been cold and overcast that early...
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
Love Started in the Stern
It was into March, 2005, and Mike and I were still comparing notes from our past. He was dubious of the idea that I could remember details of our past as well as I did. It had been 29 years at the very least! Many of his doubts were erased as I kept detailing stories that he had forgotten, until I reminded him of what they were. This story originated because he thought I'd never seen him in one of his grumpier moods. I think his fear of his grumpy side was one of the things that scared him away...
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Friday, January 20, 2006
Where Were You?
My blogging took a day off as I spent another day in the city getting my other parts checked out by yet another doctor. I’m scheduled for more tests. I’m hoping they turn out with the same good news as last time. I have a diligent network of care providers, what can I say. My husband had no portraits to take yesterday, so he volunteered to be my chauffeur. What a trooper. A year ago, before he almost lost me, I would have maybe been able to put in one or two extra stops besides going to the...
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