Sleepless Writings

Bring on the numbness Bring on the fun Work much too hard to waste my night off Play and adventure The loves of my heart Forced to live ‘neath the stress I have wrought A need for escape Delivered ‘neath foam A feeling I wish would come on its own But for now it’s a fizz And a cool refreshing... Sign in to see full entry.

I know I’m being selfish Especially when I lie It doesn’t break my heart Even if it makes me cry It fits into my idea Of how things should work Commitment kills affection Passion’s for friends who fuck It’s how it’s always been What little years I’ve lived The best sex has always happened When me... Sign in to see full entry.

A fantasy has collapsed Fallen from view Revealing reality So sad, yet so true From my desperate reach Loosed the dream in my mind My eyes have opened to the truth I’ve tried so hard to hide And if I dare let go Of what I now see Give in to the haze, Live lost in the dream, I know that I’ll cry And... Sign in to see full entry.

Sometimes I freak and throw a fit Sometimes I cry and give you shit I punch the walls; I push you away And you always know to give me space The anger subsides and the tears roll back My racing mind resumes its track The stress still there, I start to think But all I want, is you with me And when I... Sign in to see full entry.

I can’t write well With music on the brain It may flow with the song well But never on the page And as I am a poet, and not a lyricist I’d best go with what is my gift So now I commence with What I hope will be a night Where my inspiration flows And the words come out right For there is much on my... Sign in to see full entry.

Convinced that no one could want me, if by chance they got to know me Clouds of regret, they loom above me But never, they rain down Could I ever escape my reckless past? Never showing to my family Nor to any who surround me That which lies beneath the shroud Could I ever let in those whom I’ve hurt... Sign in to see full entry.

I worked today and what else, work tomorrow; should be in bed But cloaked in sorrow what's in my head but i wanna get high Loves all a waste, Toss it out and there it lands Wherever it lands and I wanna get high Can't be straight to my friends No, no I built those walls high This fight inside,... Sign in to see full entry.

I’m looking to this world Seeing what I’ve fought to hide from Thrust into my world A rage in my frustration With tears I face this mess With fear I cringe and crumble With sobs, this pain addressed At once, now numb. Now humbled Mere mortal lost in life Mere child in my ways Now with drive to make... Sign in to see full entry.

It seems to me, shit don’t ever change I never change All new problems and yet all the same I’m at the bottom, but I’m moving up It always seems like I’m moving up But new beginnings bring new crashing ends Change my surroundings and I change my friends But I’m still clinging to defeating things... Sign in to see full entry.

Gut me, examine my entrails for truth Find that every last nerve has been abused And that every last cell is infested With the bullshit and the lies I've ingested A whore to be used and abandoned Push me over and take me for granted A lamb for the offering of mere mortals Not fit for a good life,... Sign in to see full entry.