I identified CPTSD as the handle on the basket of all my behaviors and oddnesses maybe 30 years ago, just as psychologists were beginning to recognize it as a thing. It still isn't acknowledged in all the diagnostic manuals though it is pretty well-established by now that it exists and explains so much of so many broken lives. Sometimes it seems that no one will ever respect or welcome or cherish you as you hunger for, that that person is just not in the world, that you wish for too much. The... Sign in to see full entry.
I read a recent post over Elsewhere, a friend is turning 40 and is all full of the angst of it. He complains of his life, his chronic depression, his disappointments, what I refer to as The Great Futility of It All. He feels old! It got me thinking. From the onset of adulthood as we like to call the final throes of adolescence, we enter our 20s with all the philosophical wisdoms we've decided to bring to our lives. So much faith in our considered 'Truths' alongside so much superiority over those... Sign in to see full entry.
For some weeks now, and until the middle of August, The Powers of Facebk have restrained me from commenting on anyone else's posts because, apparently, something I wrote there offended someone who complained that I had violated FB's community standards. They have never seen fit to let me know what exactly that violation was, never let me defend myself or understand what not to do again. Kinda stupid, eh? On the other hand... Enforced silence is an interesting condition, keeping me from putting... Sign in to see full entry.
Rearranging the furniture is as satisfying and less work than moving into a new space. One reason is psychological or if you see the world as I do, a matter of energies. This is because our surroundings absorb our emotions as we go through life. In another perspective, that of the psyche, our emotions attach to whatever surrounds us as we are experiencing them. This is a very subtle but very potent storing of those emotional energies: we aren't aware, but we are affected below consciousness.... Sign in to see full entry.
I found this from Hashem Al-Ghaili today. Quantum physics shows that the solid world we perceive is actually made of energy lines, emptiness, and probability — not physical matter. For centuries, we have viewed the universe as a collection of solid objects, but quantum physics is dismantling that illusion. At the heart of every atom lies not a tiny, hard marble, but a swirling electric storm of probability and vibration. Scientists have proven that what we perceive as physical substance is... Sign in to see full entry.
What Lasts In the chaos constructed by human connivance, greed, and blinkered self-deception, I look to the trees rising, indifferent to human madness, slow-reaching skyward, slow-flowing sap to nourish each twig and leaf and tiny single cell... I look to the seas rolling on and on, uncaring of Man's designs, against the sands, the cliffs, or flinging wildly partnering with rocky shores to dance, force meeting gravity, to graze the air and slowly fall... I look to the skies deep endless blue... Sign in to see full entry.
I have been asked what I believe in... I believe in a complex Reality. It is not a Universe, or Multiverse that can be described in simple, linear notions. I believe in God, but not a God as much like Man as the God of Western Culture is taken for. I don't believe in a God that is He or She because those ideas put limits on what It can be. I believe God has an interest in spirit, in what we are in essence; things of the body, our physical forms, choices, commitments--these are all our own to... Sign in to see full entry.
Watching nature documentaries, another dichotomy of living in this world comes to mind: Predatory/Prey. There is very little life on Earth that does not have to kill to eat. Speaking with scientific dispassion, every organism has to acquire and transform other life forms to nutrients in order to live, to thrive, to perpetuate its own kind. Like all the other dichotomies, there is a continuum between the predator and the prey, the nuances of choice between them particularly where there is choice... Sign in to see full entry.
Here we are, living on this fairly special planet; as Terry Pratchett described it and us, "...where the falling angel meets the rising ape." That's us, indeed: a spiritual entity living in a body evolved over time from ape ancestors. Spirit vibrates at a high frequency while the body vibrates at quite a slower frequency, and somehow in some grand cosmic experiment perhaps, the two are brought together to live, to experience, to learn. I've addressed this before, the idea of this world of spirit... Sign in to see full entry.
about the Reader Ciel was a child of both a scientist and a mystic, and began to wonder how both could be real around the time she was 10 years old. The Universe has been sending her pieces of the great multi-dimensional puzzle of Reality ever since. She discovered an ability to pick up on images and colors through reading tarot cards around the age of 20. In her 30s she attended the Washington Psychic Institute (the seminary of the Church of Divine Man in Tacoma, Washington) where emphasis was... Sign in to see full entry.