This began as a short blog, posted three or four years ago, before my having lost my father and my beloved cat Bonkers. I was anticipating these kinds tragic losses and the deaths of several other people, with extreme dread. Such tragic experiences, hurt even more than I had anticipated. The only way to avoid feeling such pain, is to be the first to die. That's no solution.. Does anyone else get tight jaws and gut after asking a serious question, and then you are given the answer to an entirely... Sign in to see full entry.