Just wanted to say hello, and so I rang you this morning. I didn't like us parting company so stiff and so formal after coffee yesterday. Yesterday, I didn't need to be told you are settled.. I know you are where you are. I don't like it, but there's nothing I can do about it. Today, I've said that... Sign in to see full entry.
It's Tuesday. I had forgotten until five minutes ago that the noisy person comes in on a Tuesday. He isn't supposed to be in our room at all and, thankfully, he has gone into the proper one he is supposed to use, for tutors, and not come into our research room where we need quiet. I am grateful for... Sign in to see full entry.
What a week. Checked in with the secular counsellor on Monday, feeling perfectly calm and ordinary. These pills are good. Two days later, coffee with the heartbreaker, who is so affable and amenable that I almost can't believe it... I hadn't forgotten that it was his birthday this week, and gave him... Sign in to see full entry.
It's very strange, or maybe it's the medication that keeps me stable, but a change has come over me which allows me to not even think about anything beyond the immediate. My home, the place that was such a pull when I was going through all sorts of hell towards the end of 2007, is a dim presence in... Sign in to see full entry.
O Lord, what am I doing with my life? I put up with being overseas here, with a controlling and progressively worsening husband, two strong and challenging children, and I did that for six and a half years, surviving a third bout of depression (in this so-wonderful marriage my husband thinks we... Sign in to see full entry.
Back 'down-under' again, I'm noticing this time that it bothers me less and less the way things are done here. I have a different perspective, as a separated woman trying to pick up the pieces and find things that can work. Living here alone, I find that I am changing. I am being asked where I'm... Sign in to see full entry.
All day today in the much cooler weather, noisy crows have been chattering in the courtyard outside the office window. The torrential downpours of the last two days have been more than welcome, reminding me of home. My two colleagues and I have been fairly quiet, busy with our work... an easy and... Sign in to see full entry.
22 nd November 1999 Our uneasy truce still wavers. I got another glimpse of the undercurrent at the mall today while miscommunicating (again). He tried to corner me into saying “who” I’d still got to buy for. I said I’d prefer to finish it without him – non-antagonistically – and saw him start to... Sign in to see full entry.
I realise now that I have begun this story that I don't have with me the nine years of journals between the end of 1990 and the year before we returned to Australia. So, for my long-suffering readers... 1999, as much as I have kept with me. There is more work to be done before this is publishable.... Sign in to see full entry.
26 th December, 1990 Boxing Day. Some things remain constant between England and Australia. Going back to advertising the sales, here it is Boxing Day, 10:30 in the evening and I would say that they’ve been plugging these blooming sales since 7 o’clock when we switched on for The Wonder Years.... Sign in to see full entry.