Momlettes

Into Your Hands May Angels guide her way Lord, As she makes her way towards you. To the bright lights and beautiful music, We’ve all heard she’ll travel through. You know all the good she’s done Lord, All the lives that she has touched. Mend all the broken hearts she is leaving, Who will miss her... Sign in to see full entry.

A friend of mine was diagnosed with an incurable brain disease 36 days ago. Last night, she entered Heaven. It's been a very fast and at times horribly slow path. She saw her own mother die of the same disease 9 years ago, so she knew what was coming. I believe it expedited her own demise. Still... Sign in to see full entry.

I took my soon to be 17 year old shopping for a dress tonight. She has a Spring Dance that she asked a boy to. I haven't met him, they go as a group these days. I surrender to these things as "rights of passage" in these HS years. Carly has never had a boyfriend, I think her acne has kept the boys... Sign in to see full entry.

As I write that, I realize that I am fortunate to have to pay taxes when more than 1 in 10 in our nation are out of work today. I bemoan my own stupidity in not having a system that works. I own things like Quick Books, just haven't "used" them. My personality is to have receipts everywhere to sort... Sign in to see full entry.

My company reversed their decision and have decided to pay me the wages they were going to withhold. I made a simple entry error, human error. They want to see things in black and white, and were forced to see things in shades of gray. Having the financial compensation back, of course it feels... Sign in to see full entry.

When you wonder if today has nothing to do with right now Life slows to a crawl when you are left with nothing but your pain to keep you company in a day. I walked around my house still feeling the aftershock of Tuesdays news. When I'm angry, I clean. When I'm under a deadline, I do my taxes. When... Sign in to see full entry.

End of the Innocence I'm broken, heart broken that is. Who I thought I worked for, what I thought I believed in, doesn't exist. It's like I just found out the Tooth Fairy and Santa are not real. Some illusion of the company I defend to the death, just walked all over me and deemed me expendable.... Sign in to see full entry.

I made a mistake Nothing like an extra large does of humility to bring things down to earth for me. I'm sitting and thinking this is how I make my daughters feel when I don't talk to them when I am so mad. They deserve what Sarah Evans says in her song the knowledge that "I'll never leave, I just... Sign in to see full entry.

The tears flow so easily I wonder is it hormones, or is it the life inside me pushing to get out. Is it the longing for what I thought it would be or the hurt of the one that sits stagnant inside me. Tears fall when I express the shame I feel for the lack of motivation to get the simplest of tasks... Sign in to see full entry.

As I walked through the door, she announced this is my boyfriends house, his daughter who lives with him is hosting the party. I just started dating him not too long ago, she said she have a party. This was going to be a night of unknowns I'd be piecing together as they happened. I'd only met this... Sign in to see full entry.