Re: A Leap Of Faith
Do you know what I am praying for right now? An unlimited capacity to forgive. Ciao! ~Mama.Dragonfly Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
A Leap Of Faith
I have made an appointment with a psychiatrist for next Monday. I suppose it can't hurt. This whole nasty business with his daughter has me in such a state that I cannot eat, and I cannot sleep, and I cannot do anything but think about it, and talk about it. I hate taking bipolar meds. It seems that... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
My Attorney Says...
So I went to see an attorney this morning, and the lawyer said if I can get my psychiatrist to agree that this has caused me mental distress, then I have a case against the daughter for defamation of character. I am bipolar. "Mental distress" goes along with that territory, and I have already made... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, December 7, 2009
oh yes, Undergirded
Undergirded. When I wrote that last night, I had no idea that phrase would absolutely describe how I feel twenty-four hours later. I spent this morning with him. We went and had breakfast and went to the mall. I had to return some things I bought the other week, and I wanted to buy some boots for my... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Undergirded, By The Look In His Eye
I am looking at his picture, the one taken nearly twenty years ago. He was wearing a tank shirt and was tan, and a little piece of hair fell over his forehead. The picture was taken on a cruise ship somewhere. The picture in the frame is actually the second one. I cut the first one up into little... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
The View That Nobody Else Sees
The view out the bedroom window this morning when I opened the blinds was stunning. He was up already, just barely though, and he came over to the window to see what I was so excited about. The bright oranges and reds of the Bradford Pears he planted along the fence before he met me flanked the... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Onions Make Me Cry
I didn't stop. I couldn't stop. It felt so perfect, and so right, being in his arms and hearing his voice tickle my ear. I truly, truly love this man with all my heart, in a way that I've never loved before, and I want him so, I want him all to myself, twenty-four seven, as adolescent as that... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
The Missed Phone Call
He called me this morning while I was working. Left me a message. I went out back to listen to it, and I came in smiling, excited that he had called. I couldn't help it. I called him when I got home, got voicemail. Didn't leave a message. I know if he kissed me right now, I could so easily surrender... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
For Now
Do I hate you? No, I don't hate you. Truth is, I love you, but we have issues regarding time, and family, and planning. However, planning a life with you is, well, that is what I thought we were doing. As much as we can. For now. Plan a life together. I had accepted that fact, that this was all we... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Hard To Accept
I woke this morning in the arms of the man I truly love, and although we did not spend the holiday together, we still had our time together over the holiday. So it was nice, although I had to work this afternoon. I spent last night with my children. We had dinner. I cooked for them. They went their... Sign in to see full entry.