Daily Diary

I am not depresed, but I am stuck in state of complete laziness. It is a combination of fatiguue, poor sleep and a desire not to think. I am tired of grieving. I want to think abou something else. In order to do that I immerse myself in the internet and don't deal with life at all. I have cooked... Sign in to see full entry.

Missing Daughter Kristina Marie Hanson Last Seen: June 8, 2006 @ 3:00 PM Location: Seattle, WA Date of Birth: June 30, 1981 Hair Color: Blonde Eye Color: Hazel Height: 5’9” Weight: 170 Kristina Marie Hanson Kristina has been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, a mental illness with symptoms of... Sign in to see full entry.

Lyle just got a job, so none of the men which live in my house are home in the daytime. I have no need to be at home for them anymore until a new man comes in and that may not happen for a few months or more. My sponsees are mostly busy during the day. I rarely babysit my grandchildren any more. So... Sign in to see full entry.

The day started out with me going to a meeting I forgot about. It is a small group leaders meeting. I had forgotten about it and had eaten breakfast already. Steve and Nicole and his son Dylan went to a halloween party. Jimmy who got out of jail last Tuesday is now living with us. Today Jimmy got... Sign in to see full entry.

On Monday morning, we had a crew come in to sand and refinish our hardwood floors. Instead of a Swedish finish like we had last time, we got a water based finish. The color looks more natural, there are no fumes and it is more durable. We had to take all of the furniture out of the kitchen, living... Sign in to see full entry.

I need to start keeping regular hours. I didn't used to have so much trouble. But then I started taking mirapax and it changed my sleep. I don't need as much. So my husband goes to bed before I do and in many cases I get up before he does. That means that I, who has never done the same thing two... Sign in to see full entry.

We had one person sleeping on the couch, another in the attic and every room full. There were eight or nine people here depending on whether Trevor or Lance were here. Joy is having problems with depression and feeling suicidal. Michael relapsed. The weekend was quiet because Trevor, Steve and... Sign in to see full entry.

Yesterday was my anniversary. But instead of going out to dinner, Kurt helped Michael move Joy's car and I went to a meeting and met with my first sponsee KIm. I had a lovely evening. But I'm hoping to convince my husband to take the day off. I'm want to go to Pullayup to look at some furniture in... Sign in to see full entry.

I just decided to accept things as they are instead of expecting and needing perfection. I want so much to have a clean and neat house, with everything fixed and pretty. I'd love to have a neat yard without a bunch of junk in the back yard. But even if I did have all those things, I would still have... Sign in to see full entry.

i wrote an article on the internet about my absent mindedness. Someone commented that I probably had ADD. Although it didn't change anything for me, it did help me understand that I wasn't alone in my condition. Michael the new boarder in our house has ADHD. He was given Ritalin as a child. Shortly... Sign in to see full entry.