Friday, December 30, 2005
My body aches . . .
"My body aches to breathe your breath Your words keep me alive And I would be the one To hold you down" These lyrics, from a Sarah McLachlan song, along with a 5-month old e-mail from my ex-lover, and I became a blubbering fool, just about the time my husband called home to check on something entirely unrelated. He guessed that I’d gotten an e-mail or phone call from “mike,” but that wasn’t it, exactly. My daughter asked why I was crying, too, and all I could say was that I had listened to this...
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The New Picture. . .
...is because my husband, the professional photographer, said to change it often! He took this shot in front of Chateau Avalon, where we spent a day in Egypt. I will have a site posted today if anyone is interested in the rest of the pictoral tour. Rated PG, meaning it has some shots that made our adult daughter gag, (would that be rated DG? for Daughter Gagged?) (We were just in the bubble bath - geeze). We have our 29th anniversary coming up in April. I think our kids just found a way to treat...
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
Let the Marathon Begin!
I'm going to believe that the adage, 'Better late than Never,' will be true in our case. After a lackluster night, we had a "kiss me in the morning" kind of beginning to the day. I was moaning 'Oh Goddess Oh Goddess' to my heart's desire. The Pharaoh did arrive, even if he didn't come... Actually, the best out come of the short comings was that we talked about it. I told him how I had perceived his actions from the night before. In fact, we ate lunch at Hooters, and had the cutest waitress that...
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Walk Like an Egyptian, slipping all the way
My husband took two days away from his business to take me to Egypt, but a mere 45 minutes from our door. I was hoping to recreate a special time for us to be as special as the three B&B experiences I enjoyed with my mike. Mike and I went to old, cozy cottages; very romantic, very much us. This is a contemporary, multi-theme roomed hotel called Chateau Avalon. It’s quite new, and quite expensive. After an auspicious start, the rest of the night was a fizzle. I will have to see if the “three...
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
The Force Night, 1500 miles Away
Little did I know that the last night I talked to my mike, realized it was over and then later returned heart, body and soul to my husband’s side of the bed, that he would be experiencing his first rain in 5 years of drought, in his own marital bed. In fact, I would say that it was a whole new woman he met there. The Goddess can work that way. About 3:00 where they lived, he said he got up to pee and as soon as he got back in bed, she got up to pee. Something or “Someone” spoke to him, telling...
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
The Force Night; from my side
When my lover announced that he agreed to go with his wife for Marriage Counseling (MC), who still thought their marriage had a chance, after withholding sex and intimacy for five years, I said that I should also go, with my husband. Little did either of us know what contingencies were involved. Since most MC is set up to save marriages, in the case of affairs, infidelities, which we were both admitting to, it meant telling the lover goodbye, forever. In cases of close contact, they sometimes...
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Monday, December 26, 2005
My Favorite. . .
"thing" I got for Christmas was a mug labeled "Goddess." It is SO me! And I can fill it with any kind of "Goddess Juice" I want. And I have. Ummmm, speaking of juices, I've a man waiting for me in the next bedroom, already waiting to show me why HE'S no 40-something virgin. I hear the Goddess calling.....tell 'ya later what she wanted.....as if I didn't already know...... I'm hoping for purples and blues.
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Surprise!
I'm learning! A pic of me in late October. The hair is growing out.
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Mother May I?
When do we stop asking for our mother's approval? As a daughter, wife and a mother, I've been especially cognizant of this stumbling block, in my very humble opinion. My daughter will ask my opinion of which I like better. Invariably she'll pick the opposite of what I choose. I tried picking my least favorite so she'd chose what I truly thought was the best choice. That worked the first couple of times but I must have tipped my hand somehow. She figured it out. My husband knows better than to...
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
What IS wrong with Me?
If I had a nickel for every time my husband asked me, "What's wrong?" tonight, I might be: a) richer by 2 bits b) happy he noticed c) sad not to have hidden my feelings better d) obsessed with what I can't have e) ALL THE ABOVE It would be letter 'e.' I was not having a good day as far as my Parkinson’s goes which is probably because that damned mike dumped me this week, and said goodbye for good. I can't accept it. That means, stress which means my meds don't work.... What IS wrong with me? Why...
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