Wednesday, November 18, 2009
The Shedding of the Ninja
I slowly sat up, cautiously without the cast, and without doctor’s approval. I felt naked and vulnerable; I thought my bones would just start tumbling down. Needless to say I was terrified, but followed the lead of something I heard years ago “Feel the fear and do it anyway” Slowly I lay back down and watched to see if some bones were out of whack. My heart was beating too fast for survival, but other than that the pain did not exceed the usual low continuous throb of broken bones that I have...
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
The Ninja Turtle goes to town
Slowly I crawled out of bed and down the hall. When that became comfortable enough I ventured out the door front and actually felt the breeze slowly caress my face, and I took a deep breath for it was the first glimpse of freedom. The brighter than blue California sky seemed to fill me with an ecstatic joy that only existed in fantasy land, and the universe smiled at my Ninja cast as the first rays of sunshine visited upon it. When the sun set and rose again quiet a few times, I ventured out of...
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Friday, November 6, 2009
Ninja Turtle
With the Ninja Cast and the handy walker I crawled out of bed and visited the little room down the hall. It took a very long time to accomplish that mission, and the small sweet hands of two little girls proudly buckling the ninja cast around my hips, but it was a mission I was not so sure I would ever accomplish again, and for me it was as if I climbed Mount Everest, and at that moment I felt that I could probably climb up to the sky, if I so wished, It was as if anything I set my mind to do,...
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Miracles I Could Count On
Sun Rays were entering the darkened living room where I lay awaiting for my kids to return. My eyes were fixated on the rays as they traveled to a specific point and disappeared into the shadows. I focused and starred at the rays until everything and everyone else was gone and my focus was on the ray, and suddenly the ray turned into billions of particles that I attempted to count, but the more I counted the more they multiplied. After hours of trying in vane to count the particles I decided to...
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
Home Alone
A heavenly moment was upon me, with the paralysis of pain slowly diminishing, at the mercy of two kids under the age of ten. I was home, I was alone, but the kids were happy. I signed a waiver in the hospital assuring them that I acquired a 24-hour nurse, but I didn’t. Although I needed the care the kids had go to school during the day, which left me alone for those hours every day. Lucky for us the school was across the street and the kids could easily take a walk to school, but they couldn’t...
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
Seeking out the Bad in the Good
Seeking and Finding the bad inside the good Unveiling the good hidden within the bad Stringing the pearls of wisdom found in the Ashes Revealing the treasure created by the bad of it all. The moon swelled and moon disappeared and stills me in that lonely room I dwelled. Unable to reach the window and view the sunrise and set, I reached for the stars in my heart and soul. It stretched like the bubble gum stuck to a shoe and holding on to no end. And the kids came marching into my side smiling...
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Monday, October 5, 2009
Hospital Hospitality
It was a cube of ice brushing slightly against my lips, the food for the broken, while needle in my vein was carrying the nutritional elements the food to keep me alive. For Spiritual guidance I was left alone, in a hospital where the white washed hallways throw medicated superiority, at every breathing body. I was left alone. Not wanting to know, I was forced to learn who my friends were and who weren’t. For alone we must pass the birth canal to be born and alone we must leave our bodies behind...
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Sunday, October 4, 2009
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
The signs are clear and they are always there. To the ignorant mind that is usually blind, They don’t even appear. The human mind is one of the most amazing things. It can take us to the end of infinity, and lock us up in a torturous cell. Megan’s symptoms were crystal clear; now that I look back. She experienced Depression, withdrawal, isolation, and never a smile on her face. It was as if the happiness was socked out of her by a vampire, and I couldn’t find the way to get it back into her. The...
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Friday, October 2, 2009
Morphine
Be still and know……. Starvation was my companion; for assessment was incomplete. At any minute, some random reaction may rush me into surgery. After 12 days of exposure to every test on this planet, still they couldn’t for certain list the damage. Pain was now proof that my body was healing. For without the pain permanent paralysis was certain. However, the slightest movement sent shots of horrific daggers up my spine that was damaged beyond repair, but don’t ask me to what extent, nobody knew....
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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Waiting for Megan
Difficulties are lessons, Obstacles are challenges, and impossibilities are invitations. MORRIS CODE Ten long agonizing days I waited paralyzed emotionally in addition to physically, longing for Megan to be brought to my side. While three nurses on each side of me worked together to turn me over the pain was dim compared to the need to rescue Megan. As they inserted a tube in my ribs, the pain in my body only validated my agony for Megan. While they drained out the fluid surrounding my lungs,...
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