THE BLOG-NESS MONSTER!!! for Tuesday, October 21, 2003

I’ve been picturing different futures I’ve been passing through each day One day at a time losing more brain cells And I have nothing to say No political views, just mindless babble No personal problems I’m bringing to the surface Nothing wonderful No natural feelings of bliss But I’m here and I’m... Sign in to see full entry.

FEAR OF TEARS Feel so weak, I feel so stupid and wrong I hate to cry in front of Jon Because if I could pretend I’ve already matured I could fool him into wanting me more But it's foolish to try to hide my hurt Pretending is only making it worse I have problems and I am still young I can't be the... Sign in to see full entry.

WHAT I WANT Quiet contemplation An intellectual vacation Not in the sense where I’m going to rest my brain Because its been rested so much that each thought is a strain I need to exercise my thoughts Find out what I want Discover who I am Without the help of friends I need to go this alone This I... Sign in to see full entry.

PLEASE I want you in my arms again Keeping my heart warm again But you won’t grant me even this I’d do anything to kiss you I’ll back off and go to others Though I don’t know why I bother I want to be with the one I love Anything else just isn’t enough But the one I love doesn’t want me near You... Sign in to see full entry.

Out of the sky The questions of why My tears guilt you to stay Until my fears drove you away What went wrong and who is liable? Answers aren’t nearly viable Could you be transparent for just a little while? Your words have left me in denial Your arms have left me yearning for more To the point where... Sign in to see full entry.