Miaella's Little Black Book.

3 boys and 1 girl I'm exhausted. Funny, I always said I wanted to have a big family, and this weekend I got a taste of what it would be like. LOL! But I made some much needed money, so that's a plus. Think I might actually be able to pay a bill for once. That will get at least one bill collector off... Sign in to see full entry.

My house is getting foreclosed on and I'm slowly moving my stuff out of my home, and storing my belongings wherever I can. As I'm doing this, I'm notice I have accumulated so much STUFF. I'm living with my mom and dad right now and all I have at their house is a little make-up, toiletries, a couple... Sign in to see full entry.

Last Sunday at church I ran into a lady I haven't seen in quite some time. She asked me about my step-brother. I immediately felt uncomfortable and didn't know what to say. So I kind of mumbled, "we aren't getting along right now." She said, "that happens in families sometimes." I felt relieved. How... Sign in to see full entry.

I have discovered that in life, most of the time, who you are as a child is who you will grow up to be as an adult. I always wanted to please my parents when I was little. I watched my siblings, gave up my first car so my dad could get a new truck, spent my summers babysitting neighborhood kids so I... Sign in to see full entry.

Whenever I tell someone I think Dr. House is more appealing to me than Dr. Shephard, people split a side....LOL! I like the cynicism, the intellect, the lack of emotion, etc. I was watching an re-run of House last night and found myself nearly crying. (I'm not much of a cryer, something people never... Sign in to see full entry.

My dad said after last year's family-feud fiasco that we wouldn't be celebrating Thanksgiving again. If we did, there would be 4 of us sitting down to dinner, 6 tops. Not the big family Thanksgiving dinner we are used to. So I didn't expect we'd celebrate it this year, but my dad said we were. When... Sign in to see full entry.

and now it brings me happiness. Today is my son's NICU reunion. He gets to see the doctors and nurses that saved his life when he was born. I'm excited because I get to meet other mother's who have been through what I have with my child. Other than my brother's death, having a child in the NICU was... Sign in to see full entry.

Could describe me but I am not going there. I had a psych professor who once asked, "who makes you angry?" Everybody had a response. Mom, dad, brother, friends, children, co-workers, boss, etc My professor told us we were all wrong. Anger is an emotion. We are the only ones in control of our... Sign in to see full entry.

I often romanticize how things are going to go in my head. I do it with every aspect of my life. A few months back my mom made a suggestion that I forgive someone from my past and allow him/her back into my life. I couldn't do it. I'm one of the most hard headed, stubborn people you will ever meet.... Sign in to see full entry.

in my life I've always listened to what others have thought was best for me. I let other people make decisions for me. Even when I say something is bothering me, it doesn't matter to anybody. Nobody cares about what I want or need. Nobody respects my wishes, not my mom, not my friends, not my ex.... Sign in to see full entry.