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mysteria, just do it.
posted by
Greenfields
on September 25, 2008 at 7:06 PM
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You should go to the doctor. It is a sign something isn't right! Take of you, please! sam
posted by
sam444
on September 19, 2008 at 6:29 AM
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Mysteria...
How many times in my teen years, I've wished I could just "lay down and die", and many many more times during the last several years I worked (for someone else) have I just wished that I would fall asleep at the wheel and crash my car and kill myself (or at the very least, injure myself so badly that I would be hospitalized and never have to go back to that place for a long long time). It's funny, isn't it? How I just couldn't quit. I could have found any number of other close to minimum wage jobs. I just never felt the grass was greener.
My doctors... my therapist even, blow it off, the reason why I CAN NOT work for someone else...EVER.
They think it is not an issue. They think it is something I will get over. They don't understand what I have been through. They don't understand that if I am forced to work for someone else, I would die before I could quit a job. I would die for the fact that I can't say "no" or refuse anything that is asked of me.
Only you know what is healing for you. Others just don't get it. They can't. They have no idea what you have been through. They can listen...they can imagine...but they can never touch the depths of feeling and trauma that you have personally experienced.
You don't have to be strong, Mysteria. Give yourself a break. Listen to your body, and give it what it needs. Do things that need to be done on days that you don't feel too bad. 
posted by
Afzal_Sunny7
on September 18, 2008 at 10:47 PM
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Kid . . .
we've all got that.
I've got that myself right now.
plus all the 64 yr old aches and pains
you're all right. just normal for a human being.
posted by
Xeno-x
on September 18, 2008 at 10:11 PM
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Oh, Dear Mysteria, Good Thoughts and Hugs to you..
posted by
Katray2
on September 18, 2008 at 7:49 PM
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No the world is a wonderful place no matter how adverse it may seem at time
We get one chance at being here. let the sun shine on your face, cuddle a kitten go for a walk take a shower stay up late watch the sun rise, re read something good that you've written. So many reasons to get back in touch with life.
I have walked a difficult path all my life. Why my family have always moaned about me and who I am. But I wouldn't have missed the ride.
There is love for you somewhere close
posted by
Kabu
on September 18, 2008 at 7:43 PM
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Poor (((((((((((((mysteria))))))))))))))
I do so understand. Sometimes I get that secret feeling of wishing a Mack truck would accidentally-on-purpose do me in. You have so much love in you though. The way you look at the world opens windows to other worlds unknown but for you. So, whenever I leave this network, you are among my first few visits upon returning.
posted by
myrrhage
on September 18, 2008 at 7:38 PM
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Hope you get to feeling better real soon.
A rose
or two
from
Woof! =^..^= You know Bo!
posted by
Whacky
on September 18, 2008 at 7:31 PM
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