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terpgirl30, yes it's good to have somewhere to let it out and to interact when my head is stuck in a computer.
I have to find some alternative activitiy to break things up - hey I could go around and test treatments at spas - sounds good.
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 1:16 PM
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Scoop, I always hope for the best--sometimes I don't have the energy to do my best which means that it takes me twice as long. Today was like that.
Yes I loved the response from my students--it made the pathetic pay matter less
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 5:08 AM
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Tapsel_T when I do manage to lift my game, I am always surprised when I look back and sometimes I wonder how I did it. You know what I mean--sometimes we find hidden resources
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 4:59 AM
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Thank you Wiley, make a brew will ya. Lovelyladymonk, I agree
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 4:57 AM
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Hollee, can do. It would be a pleasure wouldn't it?
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 4:56 AM
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tigerprincess, it will be good to find time to read and write
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 4:14 AM
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Justsouno, thank you. I don't think of the parents only the students. The student I describe is very good but she has a hard road because she is blind
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 4:13 AM
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ARGUS, that's true. I was drinking tea when I read your comment
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 2:40 AM
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OK, I'll make jam
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 2:39 AM
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CarolynMoe, I hope you enjoyed it for me
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 12:02 AM
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Mary x, now my work is done for now I might just do that
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 12:02 AM
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Jemmie211, I dream of doing that too.
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 12:01 AM
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Half-life, thank you, that is a lovely thing to say
posted by
Azur
on May 19, 2005 at 12:00 AM
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Being the bright spot in someone's life is worth all of the disappointments that came before and after that dedication to you. I can remember my favorite teachers, what a noble position you held for that person. I am proud of you.
posted by
First_Fig
on May 18, 2005 at 9:31 PM
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Baking cakes and drinking tea sounds good to me.
Wish I could do that! I love baking! And tea is yummy!
posted by
Jemmie211
on May 18, 2005 at 7:54 PM
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Mayb,
So, rest on your laurels for a little while, and have a cup of tea and a few baked goods of your choice. Enjoy.
posted by
Blanche.
on May 18, 2005 at 7:50 PM
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I'll have a bon-bon for you... with all due respect.
posted by
cmoe
on May 18, 2005 at 7:43 PM
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MayB
...as Ram Dass said "Make Jam". Glad you got thru all that was on yoru plate. 
posted by
MysticGmekeepr
on May 18, 2005 at 4:07 PM
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A cuppa tea is not a bad
antidote for self-doubt.
posted by
ARGUS
on May 18, 2005 at 4:04 PM
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MayB I doubt you have chosen anything beyond your level.
This was a very refreshing post. I loved how your graded the student who questioned the difference in sameness. You are not giving free grades just to pacify mommy and daddy. That is good.
posted by
Justi
on May 18, 2005 at 3:18 PM
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MayB
Enjoy your newfound extra time!!!
posted by
tigerprincess
on May 18, 2005 at 3:07 PM
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MayB
This post makes me feel like an inadequate wimp - no comment, please! You can do all of this and all I do is think about doing things. I'll have to give myself a shake, MayB.
posted by
johnmacnab
on May 18, 2005 at 11:49 AM
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MayB - putting in my order for carrot cake and darjeeling.
posted by
Hollee
on May 18, 2005 at 8:50 AM
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Hey MayB,
Good for you!!...Take pride in your accomplishment. Now, go bake your cakes and drink your tea.
posted by
lovelyladymonk
on May 18, 2005 at 8:38 AM
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MayB
When ya bail oput to bake cakes luv my address is...............lol. Oh I have the Earl Grey tea so just the baking would be lovely kiddo
posted by
WileyJohn
on May 18, 2005 at 8:30 AM
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MayB - Somedays a person just feels that way. But, I'll just bet that you are on the level with what you need to do. If not, you will quickly rise to that level long enough to get the work done.
posted by
TAPS.
on May 18, 2005 at 8:15 AM
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I've never heard this tone in you.
First, it's not over your head, but it's okay to feel that way. It just means you're growing, taking risks. It's totally normal to feel nervous. And, May, sometimes you should bail out for a bit. Bake cakes (eat them even....if not, I will), drink tea, walk, sleep, read, whatever. You can do it, one task at a time. Just let it be okay to not always feel steady and not always know the answers. I have always felt that you feel like you should be the solid one, the one who knows the answers. It's okay if you don't, you know. Take a breather, things will look different after. :)
posted by
Temple
on May 18, 2005 at 7:52 AM
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Glad to hear MayB..
..that at least one of your stressful situations has come to an end. You sound a bit energy-depleted and in pain too? Are you able to take any kind of a break before you start your next project? All this and kids too..you amaze me..but remember to take care of yourself too okay?
posted by
ginnieb
on May 18, 2005 at 7:38 AM
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MayB
You take something away from every assignment and if it is satisfaction and you feel good about it and the students are happy, that is what counts. Then you head into the job and hope for the best.
posted by
scoop
on May 18, 2005 at 5:31 AM
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Majroj/MayB
I'm not a student, but I'm learning a lot...does that count? :)
MayB, I would take on the difficult thing just as you are, but mix it up with fun stuff. It doesn't have to be about writing either. That's why I run an antiques biz on the side. If I did *one* thing, at some point I'd lose my mind as you always hit those nasty "why am I doing this" points. Again, a future post for writing for me, but I have always had pretty detailed goals that go from 5-year, 1 year, 1 month, daily. I throw normal stuff in those goals so I accomplish personal things at the same time. I always feel that I'm moving forward (and I am) because if I hit a wall with that one article, something else is going as planned.
I'm 70-80k words into a mystery. I've hit a few brick walls. The worst was having to take out a character in chapter one, and revising a major fact around chapter one as well. It changed everything that came after. I'm still muddling through. This is such a solitary game that the motivators must come from within. Then, when they don't come, you get online and crab about it all. :) It's the best you can do. You're like me, I think. I crab, but everyone knows I'll do what I'm supposed to do. My high school teacher used to tell me that my crabbing about the impossibility of something was all part of me doing it.
I'm glad you're stretching outside of what you normally do, even if it's making you nuts now. How would you know if you're good at something unless you make those first steps?
Kim
posted by
terpgirl30
on May 18, 2005 at 4:16 AM
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elan27, I don't feel so low --well maybe a little although there is no good reason for it apart from fatigue
posted by
Azur
on May 18, 2005 at 1:07 AM
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Mayb
Sure can understand the strife.. But u shudn't feel so low, teh way u r feeling.. Every dark cloud has a silver lining!
posted by
Elan27
on May 17, 2005 at 11:07 PM
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Mayb
Sure can understand the strife.. But u shudn't feel so low, teh way u r feeling..
posted by
Elan27
on May 17, 2005 at 11:07 PM
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renigade3, I get difficult jobs because I have proven I can do them but it is no good to me physically and mentally because I set high standards which I struggle to live up to each time
posted by
Azur
on May 17, 2005 at 10:27 PM
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I'm sure you are doing much better than you give yourself credit for.
posted by
Renigade
on May 17, 2005 at 9:17 PM
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terpgirl30, yep it was a good day. I feel like I'm in over my head every week and then I drag myself through.
I need to do stuff that I enjoy more. I should give myself a break and write about easier topics. That would be the clever thing to do
posted by
Azur
on May 17, 2005 at 8:51 PM
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Majroj, it's the first time I've written about this one. You're right, I'll go write a crappy version of the story and then fix it up
posted by
Azur
on May 17, 2005 at 8:48 PM
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Yeah like she said.
(Is "terpgirl" one of your students?)
If you keep writing the same thing, you ought to have it down pretty well by now, no?
Go write something crappy and get it out of your system. The print shop teacher used to cut up a perfectly good potato and throw it into the molten vat of linotype metal, one quarter at a time. Not a good way to cook the potato, but the metal was the finer after the activated charcoal chunks circulated in the thermal currents.
Hell, you could probably sell the crapola too! Location is everything, and market is the writer's location.
posted by
majroj
on May 17, 2005 at 8:21 PM
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First, you're not in over your head
Everyone goes through that with tough or good, meaty articles. Your job is to dig information out of one person and transfer it to the reading public. As long as you ask the questions, do the research, you'll get it. You are obviously a discerning person.
As far as the rest of it...wow...that sounds like a good day to me. Any time a student comes back with that kind of feedback, know you did your job well. As far as the tutor thing, just take it that either the person needs a little extra help, or that the person wants to learn a little more than the class entailed. With the latter, you've spurred someone to want to know more. Again, a good thing!
Give yourself a break.
posted by
terpgirl30
on May 17, 2005 at 8:02 PM
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right, I saw that...baking, but not eating...I will eat but not bake em
posted by
Ariala
on May 17, 2005 at 7:50 PM
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Note I didn't say eating cakes
posted by
Azur
on May 17, 2005 at 7:48 PM
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Me too, without the baking of cakes and drinking tea.
posted by
Ariala
on May 17, 2005 at 7:47 PM
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