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Spitfire,
If I wasn't crying before I am now. I see what you are saying though. I just get sad because I want to hold him now, here, and the time for that is past. I know I have to accept that I cannot, but it still hurts. Thanks for commenting.
posted by
Julia.
on October 28, 2004 at 11:18 PM
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QA, Two things: First, it is you who chooses to analyze that experience
as a mind trick. The souls of animals are much in the same behavior as in humans. They have the ability to appear to us within our visual realm and visit us as often as they want. Tiger was probably doing just that. Secondly, when you stated,
"And I hate my mind for making me realize that this one wish will not ever come true" That last part of the sentence may feel real to you right now, but think about the alternative. I know you believe that we reunite with our friends and loved ones when we die and cross over back to the other side again. You also believe that animals have souls. Therefore, your one wish WILL come true when it is your time to die and go back Home. He will be one of the first souls to greet you and you will be able to hold him in your arms again forever.
posted by
SpitFire70
on October 28, 2004 at 11:08 PM
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grouch,
you know what they say...better late than never, right?
posted by
Julia.
on October 28, 2004 at 10:23 PM
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quirky
forgive me, my friend, for reading this so late...
tg
posted by
tbgroucho
on October 28, 2004 at 12:14 PM
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Wiley,
Every day I am here, I like you more and more. A kinder, sweeter person I have never met. Thanks for caring.
posted by
Julia.
on October 28, 2004 at 9:29 AM
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Witchflower,
thanks. I know it will take time, but no one said it would be easy. Far from it. Anyway, I have three other furballs to keep me company while time lessens my pain, and am very thankful for them.
posted by
Julia.
on October 28, 2004 at 9:27 AM
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After awhile
After about the thirtieth animal or person you are close to dies, you get numb. Then, you get bitter. When you reach that point, you know you have attained zen.
posted by
qwertyui
on October 28, 2004 at 8:37 AM
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Now Quirky
I really can feel for ya kiddo,
and the hurt lasts but it does get easier to carry.
The hurts of life are kind of like wet laundry in a basket you're carrying.
The sun and the wind dries the laundry and the basket gets lighter.
On occasion, somebody may come along and help you carry the basket luv.
Kind of like we're all trying to do with you here 
posted by
WileyJohn
on October 27, 2004 at 9:46 PM
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Ah, Quirky
Sorry for that painful moment. As you said, it will get better, but from my experience, it is going to take a long time. No one can replace Tiger, but perhaps there is another kitty out there, with different looks and a different personality, who needs you and can fill a little spot in the hole in your heart
posted by
Witchflower
on October 27, 2004 at 9:21 PM
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Alf,
thank you. I am glad you found solace in your song. I wrote a poem about Tiger right after he died but it doesn't really make me feel better--yet. This too shall pass. If I tell myself that often enough, eventually it will become true.
posted by
Julia.
on October 27, 2004 at 8:45 PM
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Quirky
When I was born we got a dog, her name was lady. She was my sister until I was 8 and she was killed. I could not speak of her for the next 20 years without crying and becoming terrible sad. Finally, I don't know why, I forced myself to write a song about her. After I got through that experience I was much better. Whenever I get sad and think about her I sing the song. I don't know why...but it worked for me. I hope you feel better. ~Alf
posted by
A_Norseman
on October 27, 2004 at 8:18 PM
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Ariala, skirts and inn,
thank you for caring. I appreciate your words.
posted by
Julia.
on October 27, 2004 at 8:16 PM
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QuirkyAlone...
May your heart be lighter soon.
posted by
theinnkeepersdaughter
on October 27, 2004 at 7:04 PM
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RachelAnna,
thank you, that is a much better way to look at it.
posted by
Julia.
on October 27, 2004 at 6:54 PM
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Quirky, I wish I had the words...I completely understand though, because
I love my kitties so much. Be strong though -- you know Tiger wouldn't want you to feel sad and lonely.
posted by
Ariala
on October 27, 2004 at 5:36 PM
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You sound so sad....... I'm sorry for you.
posted by
shortskirtsrkewl
on October 27, 2004 at 5:07 PM
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Argh!
This has happened many a times. Maybe it was a sign from your kitty that he's up there somewhere, just sunning himself him a field. Think of it that way. :)
posted by
RachelAnna
on October 27, 2004 at 1:18 PM
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Your welcome and many more to you!
posted by
Melodystar
on October 27, 2004 at 11:56 AM
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Melody and Jemmie,
thank you for the hugs, they are needed today.
posted by
Julia.
on October 27, 2004 at 11:52 AM
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Hollee,
thank you for that single perfect rose. Would that I could inhale its lovely fragrance to lift my spirits.
posted by
Julia.
on October 27, 2004 at 11:19 AM
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I know exactly how you feel!
Many hugs to you!
posted by
Jemmie211
on October 27, 2004 at 11:05 AM
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I am so very sorry. I know what the memory of pain feels like. Many hugs to you.
posted by
Melodystar
on October 27, 2004 at 10:57 AM
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Quirky
posted by
Hollee
on October 27, 2004 at 10:52 AM
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canine,
I probably do, but in my present state of pain I cannot recall it.
posted by
Julia.
on October 27, 2004 at 10:39 AM
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Quirky,
You know where I stand on this one.
posted by
canine277
on October 27, 2004 at 10:23 AM
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