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Ah Jemmie, I am so sorry you are going through such a terrible time ...
sending you warm healing thoughts and love and peace
xx.
posted by
Moohahaha
on September 30, 2004 at 11:34 PM
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Jemmie, dearest, remember that your Daddy is watching you and he wouldn't
want you to make yourself absolutely sick over his leaving so abruptly. Your health is so delicate anyway.
He would be hugging you and wiping away your tears and telling you to go do something positive while feeling like hell. I always imagined my dad watching me and it was spooky. When I felt that I was crying too much and letting my business fall apart in the process, I would go sit under the tree that we planted for him and talk to him, calming down some and he would always tell me to get back to work, to go and make my way in the world, without him, as he had to do when he lost his precious and beloved mommy. He was a wreak for awhile, but had six children to support.
I say all this and tell you that the crying helped a lot inside, but didn't help anything going on outside. I still have moments when I cry, but because I'm so old and an Episcoplaian ( we are taught to keep a stiff upper lip and to hide our feelings) I only let gentle infrequent tears fall. The Mexican in me wanted to pull out my hair and wail and throw dirt on myself, like the Arab women do. I have finally found a place in between the two feelings, but it's been two years now.
I kiss your tattoo owie and your forehead. So sorry, baby girl..............
posted by
benzinha
on September 30, 2004 at 10:53 PM
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thebuxomwench
I tend to agree with you. I think it's still shock.
It's been 15 days, yet I still cry nearly every day. Yesterday I even went into hysterics and thought about going to the nearby hospital because I couldn't calm down and was hyperventilating and just freaking out.
posted by
Jemmie211
on September 30, 2004 at 7:31 PM
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I think it's the grief, Jemmie, the shock still lingering ...
I went through a similar thing for a very long time after my Mum died. My thoughts are with you,
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posted by
Moohahaha
on September 30, 2004 at 7:21 PM
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Jemmie, I'm always cold, even in summer...
posted by
Ca88andra
on September 30, 2004 at 5:30 PM
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