How much is too much?
With love it's unconditional. I want it to be forever. Protecting your feelings and heart is what I do. Do you see? I'm not so sure you can anymore.. Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, September 19, 2018
Friday, September 14, 2018
Headache, stomach hurts..
Can't sleep, I can't eat I know I have to keep going, I know that I will keep going. I have no time to ask how no time to pray.. must breathe.. exhale.. okay... I got this... yes. We got this! Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
Forgiveness...
I try to let go...I really do I am reminded so often of the past... I still feel like that child treated like I am a second thought... not important oh yeah, your here too, I forgot when I am continually treated this way it's hard to let go and forgive really very difficult.. Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, September 11, 2018
Patience...never had much of that
I hope to find what it is I am looking for... I am not sure what that is... I search every day for what is wrong.. When am I going to ask myself when is it right? What is it that I am waiting for??? Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, September 10, 2018
The twitches are back...
The last couple of nights they started back. (the tics in my neck) While I was cleaning the kitchen a few minutes ago they started again. I can't stand this. I don't like suffering with this crap. It gets so old. I can't remember the things I want to do. Then day is over once again and nothing is... Sign in to see full entry.
so far so good I suppose
Today not so bad. Letting dinner simmer. Waiting on this hurricane. Trying my best not to let my emotional mind to take over my life. Rational mind is hard to get to for me on a regular basis. Finding a balance, yeah right, pigs fly. It's like my mind races my ideas take over I cannot get them out... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, September 9, 2018
you are your own advocate...
Well, that's where my problem begins. I don't believe in myself. Right now, I don't much believe in anything. It's one of those days again. I am re-thinking everything. It's driving me---NUTS! I want to CRY, SCREAM, BREAK THINGS! I don't know what to do. I have lost faith in so much. Tomorrow the... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, September 8, 2018
I'm still an idiot...
Things in life are never what they seem. You think things are what are. When did you figure out it was all BS? ME? I get my confirmation it seems every single day. Today, somebody just today told on themselves. Used the diversion tactic very well. Would've fooled the best of them...I wonder why I... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, September 6, 2018
14 yr old: He took the blue one it was mine...
Me: I bought three different colors. Yes, I mentioned to someone that the blue would probably be yours. My mistake was I told no one else. Therefore, someone else took the blue one. No, I did not tell him to give it to you, that you would like it better. The other one was on the bar. It was the only... Sign in to see full entry.
Don't step on those eggshells...
It's exhausting making sure to be fair & remember everything always. Today has been ok. Still have the shakes hard to eat, but ok. I have so much I want to give, so many ideas. I can't remember or write them down fast enough. I will prevail. I will accomplish something good, I will help someone... Sign in to see full entry.