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the raIn will fall again sOon everything is falling apart i was so suRe we'd have a warM plaCe for the night that i could rest a bit sleep in soMe warM rOoMs but it won't happen not tonight not in this country it seeMs i knew though the idea wasn't great but i'M so daMn cOld so tiRed i would love to... Sign in to see full entry.

cRises i so muCh needed to find a plaCe to rest for an hOur or twO to sit & wRite in a warM rOoM i'M freeZing to deAth i'M dying to be warM i don't want to talk i only need to write i cRied but wHo gives a daMn? i hate wilderness as much as the ciTy i haTe the cOld ouTsIde & most of iTs inhaBitants... Sign in to see full entry.

1516 they aRe all enJoying soMe tiMe outside playing with their kiDs, reading, or talking to eaChotHer. iT's warM even though the sun is not aRound the sKy is gREy & so is my miNd. old & yOung peOple sitting in the saMe aRea my miNd was is pain wHen i wOke up now iT's dying to be away to see new... Sign in to see full entry.

i'M so wRong i need to feel ugly to tOrtuRe myself & feel wRong wOuld yOu notiCe? yOu didn't yOur EyEs were lOving not the saMe as usual i had a haRd tiMe feeling the meaning in yOur EyEs like an eMpty spaCe between us i couldn't tell for suRe i just couldn't feel the love but maybe that was just me... Sign in to see full entry.

sHe's paIn i'M listening to this aNgRy conversatiOn & iT's taking me dOwn this woMan feels so sad & needs to sHout. sHe's suffered so much it seeMs the look on her faCe sHe's not beautiful anymOre the pain eraZed it all she seeMs so old now. ©pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.

a look in the EyEs i caught this look in the EyEs perveRse the kiNd of man i used to like playing with sMaRt or playful wHo i've found aTtraCtive who i would have lOved to own for a wHile. iT's only the look in his EyEs that made me feel the past eMotions i used to like the only look in his EyEs... Sign in to see full entry.

i will forget i wish the wOrld could eXplode now soMething brOke last night soMething felt wrOng. nothing was clear in my miNd i was not begging for anything & yOu did not give me anything i could see this deep daRk hOle i wanted to disappear i so much wanted to gO... i didn't want to be by myself... Sign in to see full entry.

dreAd fEar wHat do i fear just nOw the wind blOws sTrong iNsIde of me i'M not feeling saFe leaving everything even with yOu taKes the sHit out of me ©pElAgUS Sign in to see full entry.

arOund the thRoat wHy aM i so stRessed? as things aRe settling so perfeCtly as lOve is grOwing so beautifully i can't help but paniC. my miNd feels lost & addiCted to so much i can't breathe well i can't feel alright the weather is stOrMy daRk clOuds in the sky peOple feel oppressive everything... Sign in to see full entry.

moMent of lOss i can't tell what i'M craving for wHat i'M doing heRe iF there's a reason for me to be heRe & wHen will i know? i'd like to sleep just now or talk to soMeOne i like & at the saMe tiMe i'd lOve to be alOne. i haTe feeling lOst & that's wHere i aM just now i don't liKe those peOple they... Sign in to see full entry.