Saturday, August 13, 2005
From Despair to Hope and back
Kelly came home sick and is gradually getting sicker. She did not get her July shot, nor her August one. I think that she had a prescription and didn't tell us about it. I'll find out when her doctor returns from vacation. Kelly is mean and totally selfish. There is no resemblance to the swet girl...
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
i am tired.
Both of my daughters are sick. i have done everything I can do for them. My husband does everything he can to make them feel good. The only problem is that he doesn't insist that they grow up, take care of themselves, deal with life. So now we have two grown daughters who are immature and unwilling...
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Monday, July 25, 2005
Is Kelly better?
I don't know how Kelly is. But she found money on my jewelry chest, took it to the store and bought only chips to have with bead dip. Is Kelly better? Yes. Is she well? No. She doesn't think she can get her appointment by herself, even though the bus goes right by it.
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
The Daily Grind
When my daughters have been ill, they lose their self confidence. Thus Brenda calls me about every little problem. I need to clean my oven. I need to find my social security card. All problems big and small have to be run through mom. I hate it. I want to help her but then again, I want her to do it...
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
Some grants are granted!
Kelly has GAX now which means she can have mental health care and go on and get SSI. Right now she wants to live with her sister, but her sister is moving in August, so I told her just to visit her until then. She went through a crisis, but maybe she will work her way into being well. It's hard to...
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Saturday, July 9, 2005
Acceptance
I've finally stopped stressing over Kelly's up and down mental status. She is still unwell. She still does destructive things--she cut my new copy of my Master's of Divinity diploma that came in the mail on Friday. But on the otherhand, she is better in other ways. Brenda is doing very well, but...
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Thursday, July 7, 2005
Kelly seems normal.
The only problem is that there must be a but. She isn't tearful, angry, defiant. She doesn't want to clean the house for free and thinks that she should get more money, but which is typical. The test will be on Saturday if she bakes Jimmy's cake and does a good job. If she does that then she has...
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Wednesday, July 6, 2005
Things seem better.
Kelly got up early and made herself pancakes. I woke up to the heavenly smell. There wasn't enough for me, but i don't care. I'm not hungry anyway. I have a cold and a little sore throat. I don't feel really bad, just not hungry. Brenda is here we had to bomb her apartment to get rid of the fleas. (...
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Monday, July 4, 2005
My depression took a vacation.
I went to the sunny side of the mountains and laid in the sun. Then we went exploring Ellensberg. It is a combination cowtown and college town. Nothing downtown was open. We went on to Cle Elum and past it to the Starlite Resort. They have a restaurant that is supposed to be very good, but today...
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Friday, July 1, 2005
Loving my daughter,
hating the disease. When my daughter becomes ill, I can no longer see that person that she is. She becomes very selfish and self centered. She wants to talk but no listen. Only when she is with people outside the family does she act more like her age and her normal personality.
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