Bah Humbug

Coffee with the nice man ended up lasting about three hours. Even though he warned me he could be shy, I don't think there were any real lulls in the conversation. I liked him but for some reason, I came home exhausted. Typically an evening such as this would not tire me, so I have to wonder what my... Sign in to see full entry.

Just when I've given up on all humanity, something good happens that restores my faith. Perhaps we will survive another century without totally killing each other. Maybe I will venture outside my front door today and smile at someone for no apparent reason other than they looked like they needed it.... Sign in to see full entry.

I met a man. He seems like one of the good ones. I've agreed to coffee tomorrow. Part of me is excited but the rest of me reminds me I've given up on dating and no matter how much we have in common, I'm likely not the dating kind still. Had I actually meant to find someone interesting, you know I... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm not sure when I first discovered I didn't have a life. It was probably during one of those short breaks from children babbling in unified chaos. Since then I've tried to convince myself that I do have a life, just not necessarily a stereotypical one. Hey, even the choice of hermit is a... Sign in to see full entry.

I recently had a gentleman tell me about a lady he is currently attracted to. Two reasons he found her attractive was she was childless and had never been married. Well, the childlessness, I could understand. No everyone is cut out to be around children. Probably far more than who will admit. I... Sign in to see full entry.

How often have best intentions been met by mean-spirited people who have no compassion? How often have the holidays been desecrated by betrayal, deceit, destruction? Will we never learn? No not the obvious answer. Not to avoid putting ourselves on the line, to fight for what is right, to care. We... Sign in to see full entry.

Don't ask me where this line of thought came from. You really don't want to know. Really doesn't matter anyway. The thought process is valid, if a bit off color. The days of Leave It to Beaver are long gone. I admit to knowledge of ancient Rome and Greece. Debauchery at its finest. It appears we are... Sign in to see full entry.

I have faced Christmas for the last dozen years or so with mixed emotions. I love giving gifts. that part of the holiday, I really get into. On the other hand, since the fall apart of my family, I also face the holiday with sadness. I miss the huge gatherings. I miss the people, the smells, the... Sign in to see full entry.

It has been suggested I give the cat her own glass, since she can't manage to leave mine alone. For the record, I have tried that. Just like a child, whatever I have is better, even if it came from the same bottle, faucet, etc. Yesterday, I bought the cat a treehouse and some other toys in an... Sign in to see full entry.

Dear Diary, Today was calm. The emotions were calm. The environment cooperated, and I even finished the day feeling productive, as if I am moving forward in this world. That is a big one. There are days I can't remember the last time I felt as if I was moving. It is as if I am just filling space in... Sign in to see full entry.