~That's Right~

February 19, 2008 I, Jillian Nicole Pierone vow to move OUT of this house by April 20, 2008. I will find an affordable room or apartment in Pennsylvania, and I will not only live according to my means but save money to improve my life for the future. I will quit smoking on April 1, 2008. I will be... Sign in to see full entry.

It's something people say when they see you strugglinmg with something they don't understand. It's the only advice a person has to give when they don't realize the full extent of the problem. I'm never going to listen to another person who says these words to me. I may, at time, analyze things that... Sign in to see full entry.

The "I meant to do that" syndrome; or IMTDT This syndrome is most common in stubborn assholes, bullied or formerly bullied children, and cats. Much how a cat will slide across the kitchen floor, slamming into the cabinets and walk away as if it had meant to do that very thing all along, similar to... Sign in to see full entry.

My mind is filled with so much, as of late; my entire being, with emotion. I’ve felt the sting of betrayal and the pain of loss. I’ve felt the heartbreak of being discarded, and the joy of finding a stronger bond with an old friend. I have multiple legal problems. I may be losing my license, and the... Sign in to see full entry.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, about my goals and where I want to be in life. I’ve run through just about every dream that I’ve had in recent years and months. Turned them over, looked at what aspects made me the happiest. One thing that is consistent is the urge to know more about the... Sign in to see full entry.

Is doodles. Scrawls on a page. My world is Jeddy, I come home to every day, My world is Kimmy, the first person I've come to trust,. My world is Ben, an object of my lust. My world is my loving of those I cannot trust. My world is dreaming. I dream of greatness. I dream of success. I am a writer,... Sign in to see full entry.

"...to simply fuck, suck, or backdoor it requires nothing more than the body's adorable floppy bits." -- from The Ferrett 's "Why I can't rape my wife" http://www.theferrett.com/showarticle.php?Rant=24 I just had to throw out that quote! Sign in to see full entry.

A moment ago, I found myself sitting alone, and I just wanted to talk to or see Jon, see Drew, anyone… and I caught myself. I’m back to what I always come back to. Missing people, perhaps not for them, but so I can feel missed? It’s sick. It’s wrong. I started to cry and all I wanted then was for... Sign in to see full entry.

CONCLUSION— REALIZATION – EPIPHANY Whatever you want to call it, here it is: In order to be the real you, you have to allow yourself to dream about what you fear you’ll never have. You have to fantasize about things that you know shouldn’t happen—Escape into a world where everything is right. ‘They’... Sign in to see full entry.

You'll never be satisfied. You should never be satified. There's no such thing as a permanent and lazy happiness. A happy ending is a story that hasn't finished yet. There will be many people in your life. Some will go through shit with you. The rest are just there for decoration. Good friendships... Sign in to see full entry.