Tuesday, May 1, 2007
When relationships end, I think everyone has to shoulder at least part of the blame. I've been thinking about that today. I have an ex-boyfriend from Texas who sends me text messages every now and then (like today). He was my high school sweetheart. He was my first love...the one who became the... Sign in to see full entry.
Under Pressure
It is difficult to focus these days. I find lately that I don't really want to adhere to any of my responsibilities. I don't mind working....I'm actually a hard worker. I think that might be the problem. I have this full-time job, and then I squeeze in my freelance writing when I can (which is not... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
It's been a while
I shudder to think about how long it's been since I've been in a normal, stable relationship. Let me think......hmmmm....well, there was that one guy....oh, wait, no, he turned out to be a liar. But then there was that time when.....oh, wait, no that doesn't count...that guy was in love with his... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Going Back
It seems that my heart is pulling me back to Texas. This is really weird. I just moved here a year ago and I'm ready to go back? This brings on an entirely new and scary set of possibilities. I will, at some point, face my old lovers. It is just bound to happen. But perhaps things will go... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, March 8, 2007
It's Over
After days of silence, he finally called me and told me what I knew already. But even though I anticipated it, it was so difficult to hear. I know that he ended our almost real love affair as much for me as for him, but it still causes me pain that feels so familiar. I spoke in bitterness about him,... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Pressing Restart
Thank God for wine. It will see me through this night...and perhaps a few others after this. I'm really trying not to be the eternal, bitter, pessimist as so many have seen me in the last few months. Maybe it's because I only communicate when things are shitty. I don't know. All I know is that this... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Disclosure
In a relationship, how can you tell when it is time for disclosure of personal information? In my experience, there are two schools of thought on this one: Tell everything or tell nothing. I always say that the truth is somewhere in the middle. But where do you draw the line between telling and not... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
This Man
I went to dinner with one of my best friends last night. I hadn't seen her in well over a month, and we had a lot of catching up to do. I had given her snippets of the story of my long-distance lover, but I needed to tell her everything. There is so much to tell here. How do you explain to someone... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Are You the One?
How do you know if a man is the right one for you? I feel like I am spiraling out of control- I am falling in love with him- I am already. But how do I know? I am passionate and loving towards him. I want to love- I don't want it to end. I want it to be only the beginning, but can he begin this life... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, February 5, 2007
Desire
I almost forgot what real desire could feel like. I don't mean the type of desire that sparks from passing a handsome stranger on the street. A fleeting thing- you look, you smile, you forget. I have something new, something different, something hard to articulate. It's a heat that burns from the... Sign in to see full entry.