GIVING LIFE A SECOND CHANCE for Sunday, November 18, 2007

The conversation has been interesting and she's as cute as can be. I just hope she doesn't get the wrong idea. I'm not ready to jump into anything. I need friends... good ones. Close ones... but not too close. Screw it, I'm going to sleep. Sign in to see full entry.

I did reply to a few of her texts... but I didn't answer any of her calls. I'm refusing to talk to her. She's still calling... has been nonstop ever since this afternoon. My roommate is snoring. Yay, I'll have a great time falling asleep tonight. Headed to bed here shortly but just wanted to say a few things. Today was as normal and boring as I had expected. I was tempted to go out for a little bit this evening and get some fresh air but Blogit engulfed my attention span all freaking day. Thanks... Sign in to see full entry.

Sooo... she has called 43 times over the past 4 hours and sent several text messags saying if I pick up and we talk she'll get closure and never call again. Hmm, knowing how that has gone that last oh... 10 or so times she has tried it... do I answer? I already know what she's going to say. I've heard it time and time again. Once she figures out I'm fed up and stop talking to her she knows her only chance is to strike that same nerve over and over again until I start chasing her. Then she... Sign in to see full entry.

She knows my weakness. She knows I'd do anything... even if it meant running through the depths of hell... again. When she senses that I'm starting to let go she sends a text or gives me a call. It's almost like a leash. Once I get enough distance she gives it a yank. I'm sick of it. Sign in to see full entry.

Normal day today. Still haven't touched my laundry yet but whatever. The washing machines aren't going anywhere. My roommate randomly appeared to spend the day here? Not quite sure what his deal is but again... whatever. I've seemed to stop caring about the little things again. My ex girlfriend sent me a text out of nowhere. She asked if I had called her parents again. I haven't... her Mom called me earlier this week. It's funny how my ex can say that I didn't care about anything but me... but... Sign in to see full entry.

So I went to bed at 2ish. Fell asleep trying to watch the movie that I started watching the night before. I guess if I'm lucky I'll actually finish it today or tonight. Any way I woke up this morning wide awake which is extremely odd. I'm never a morning person and it takes me forever to get up when others wake me up let alone when I wake up on my own. But this morning it was like bam, eyes open, not even groggy... didn't make sense at all. What was worse... IT WAS 9 AM! Ugh, on a freakin'... Sign in to see full entry.