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Re: FSI
It's a bit surreal to be really honest. He can no longer hurt me and I guess in the end that is all that really matters.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 7:30 PM
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Some tense moments there you describe...I've had times where I put up a front and felt the same way you did though not for those reasons.
posted by
FormerStudentIntern
on December 15, 2010 at 7:14 PM
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Re: Lizzi
Thank you so much for your kindness.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:46 PM
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Re: Wow, you are brave...I think your body is still in shock...your heart and
Ariala,
Thank you so much for your kind words. I am not so sure I was brave but I didn't run and for me that is good enough.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:44 PM
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Re: Bel, you probably had a sudden rush of adrenaline as you spotted
Rumor,
You are right. I've been through a ton of emotions today and now I am finally coming down. I expect I will sleep well tonight.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:42 PM
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Bel, you handled it well. You felt anger as you should, you did not cringe, and you got out of it stronger.
posted by
dizzilizzi
on December 15, 2010 at 6:42 PM
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Re: Bel
Naut,
That makes two of us when it comes to understanding her...I am done trying. I am simply going to focus on being the best mother I can be to my child and living with love and happiness. They can live in their sickness, I can choose to not live in it or subscribe to it.
Thank you so much.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:41 PM
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Re: As Naut said, I'd have the problem with your mother....
Pat,
You can say anything you like! I have to admit, I hate him too.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:38 PM
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Re: Just remember you was strong and hold on to that.
Thank you so much Cheery.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:37 PM
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Re: The best of Blogit, this is what we really do here, hold each other
Kabu,
It truly is a unique place. I am dealing with a great deal of anger today, but oddly enough, I think it's healthy to finally let it all come up. I threw snowballs at a big wooden fence until I was exhausted...that seemed to help...it was that or dishes and I really don't want to have to replace or clean up broken dishes LOL!
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:35 PM
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Thank you everyone!
I am so blessed with such an amazing bunch of people here. If you haven't been told lately, you are all wonderful.
A few of you have suggested that you would be angry with mom as well. Trust me that hit me later today. In fact it hit in the form of rage because in my opinion what happened today would not have happened if just once she would have put any of her children first.
I am clear today that when I leave here, I can walk away without guilt or regret.
I am better now, dealing with a great deal of anger that I think is probably long past due. Again, there are no words to express how grateful I am for each of you.
posted by
Bel_
on December 15, 2010 at 6:24 PM
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The best of Blogit, this is what we really do here, hold each other
tight when there is a need. I don't get your Mother either, but she has to live with herself, I am sending you a hug and tell you what, let's put a pillow in the middle of a room and call it him and throw stuff at it and tell it all the things we would tell him....and Mom.
posted by
Kabu
on December 15, 2010 at 5:50 PM
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Just remember you was strong and hold on to that.
posted by
Cheerygirl
on December 15, 2010 at 4:13 PM
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As Naut said, I'd have the problem with your mother....
And you can be sure the guy's afraid of what you might say to someone who doesn't know his true colors. Can I just say I hate that guy!
posted by
Pat_B
on December 15, 2010 at 2:38 PM
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Bel
I do understand your reaction, even though mine would have been rather different...But what I have a difficulty with is understanding your mother...
posted by
Nautikos
on December 15, 2010 at 2:25 PM
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Bel, you probably had a sudden rush of adrenaline as you spotted
this man, and it will take awhile for that to wear off....that plus a sudden rush of memories, none of which were good.
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posted by
Rumor
on December 15, 2010 at 12:27 PM
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Wow, you are brave...I think your body is still in shock...your heart and
mind gathered all the strength it could muster and now your body is dealing with that reality all over again...I'm so sorry you went through that!
posted by
Ariala
on December 15, 2010 at 10:26 AM
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