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one small visit is like a heroin addict saying just one small taste.......
it is not ever, cannot be enough and only causes a larger and more sorrowful pain.........
posted by
benzinha
on April 1, 2010 at 6:44 PM
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A SOUL GONE SOLITARY
Thank you so much for your comments.After reading them, I looked for your blog just to say it was a difficult piece to write, though the words came easy enough, but ink smears when wet.LOL. After my wife passed, it took several years before i found the courage to date again, and as luck would have, met a beautiful woman 15 yrs younger than I .And fell in love right out of the gate.There was this huge empty space where my wife had been, and I was desparate to fill the void, and thought I had....until I told her about the cancer and treatments to follow. I don't blame her for not wanting to be there if things got worse. But now the cancer is gone, but alas, so is she, and after the damage of falling in love again, the void remains as wide and deep as ever, so I shall remain a soul gone solitary.Ray
posted by
Raysongs
on April 1, 2010 at 5:54 PM
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I know that terrible stomach churning feeling.....and the person was never
worth the trouble in the long run.
posted by
Kabu
on April 1, 2010 at 3:31 PM
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is this the good thing about being human or the bad thing about being human?!? Without terrifying doubt and question would we relish the outcome as much? I've gotten so I love my same-ol' life very well, but would I without having experienced the emotional fireworks of earlier years. . . I'm not old enough to know that! 
posted by
OutaBreath
on April 1, 2010 at 8:23 AM
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I Have gone through that exact same thoughts too many times
and I thought I was the only one. Will he show? what will I do if he doesnt, and what will i do if he does? All I can tell you is that Yes he will show, and you will triumph !
posted by
Tzippy
on April 1, 2010 at 4:36 AM
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