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Thanks for all the good words.
I am better now. Perhaps the b'day made the depression go worse. I will seek a profesional help before it goes out of my hands.
May god blesss you all.
posted by
freeflyinbird
on November 25, 2009 at 8:37 AM
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May the Lord give you strength to endure this pain. God bless!
posted by
hardilaziz
on November 25, 2009 at 4:53 AM
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I've had those problems with depression too.
posted by
FormerStudentIntern
on November 24, 2009 at 8:23 PM
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Get help! Now! Once you start actually liking your depression, that's a very bad sign. Listen to all the sound advice from kabu and others.
posted by
vogue
on November 24, 2009 at 4:06 PM
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What Kabu said. Depression can be joked about and spoken of lightly and
we can pretend that it is not day crushing, but, all joking aside, it is terrible what it does to ordinary pleasure.
Ordinary pleasure belongs to us all and you do not have your share. Only a doctor can give it to you, not time, not another person, nothing, but professional help.
Been there and done that and it only stays and keeps hurting and ruining each lovely day by taking away all that is available to you which brings happiness and joy. Depression steals it, it is a thief, a cruel lover who calls you names and beats you up and locks you inside dark room full of loneliness.
You can leave those rooms, embrace the sun, birds calling and silly things which the rest of us smile about, but only with help. I know, I got that help long ago. I have a real life now, one where the world's good things are visible and each day is a wonderous and fabulous gift, better than Christmas or Eid or whatever.
Sixteen years of illness seems quite enough indulgence as I indulged myself for over twenty and it was much too long a time to have wasted in sorrow; time to be the adult caregiver of yourself and get help.
posted by
benzinha
on November 24, 2009 at 4:04 PM
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Don't worry? Ofcourse I will.You need to talk to someone. ...like a doctor
I will pray for your Peace. Life is a gift precious and blessed beyond all else. It is given to us we don't have the right to just throw it away. Depression is awful and you are obviously an individua lthinking person, so the confinement of your marriage, your life, sometimes makes you want toscream. Go ahead and scream.and do get some help. WE ARE HERE FOR YOU.
posted by
Kabu
on November 24, 2009 at 2:33 PM
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