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Emma,
I feel and agree with everything you said. I can't help all the negative feelings I have or that I have done but I can't live a lie or do that to another person. Thank you.
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Evastars
on May 15, 2008 at 10:47 PM
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You have the healthy kind of selfishness that keeps people from living a lie. I applaud you.
No matter how much you care about someone, if you aren't happy, it is best to find
your happiness, and allow your partner to find theirs. You cannot change anything other than yourself. You can't expect the other person to conform to what you want. It may take kissing a TON of frogs to get there, but you WILL find your happiness if you look to yourself, and your intentions first.
I am not a relationship genius by a long shot, but I have finally found that true happiness resides in me, and the second I began to touch on it, I found someone who meets me in the middle, for the first time in my life.
posted by
EmmaCunnan
on May 15, 2008 at 10:34 PM
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Vickip-
I am slightly ashamed to say this, but I am selfish. But I think that we all need to be selfish in order to create our own happiness in this life. I can't live for someone else, I need to live for me and for what I represent. One of my biggest concerns is the group of friends I have and knowing that some of them may not understand me or the decisions I have to make. But if they don't stick around then they aren't really worth the time in the end.
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Evastars
on May 15, 2008 at 9:31 AM
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BC-A,
Thank you for your kind words and reply. This is just one part of my ever evolving random life...
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Evastars
on May 15, 2008 at 9:29 AM
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Re: seriously, then why do waste a guy's life????
Super Sonic-
I have no intentions of wasting anyone's life. Mine, his, or anyone else's. You're fine to ask. I wouldn't be offended by questions to information I have made public. If I wasn't open to any type of response than I had no business putting it out there.
Part of the terrible spot that I'm in now isn't a place I could have ever predicted when I said yes to a proposal or even when I said I do. Nothing that I am doing now is intentional. Most of what I feel each and everyday is terrible. I know that I have to life for myself and be honest with my feelings but at the same time I know that WHO I AM is extremely hurtful to someone else. Try waking up and liking yourself on a day to day basis...
posted by
Evastars
on May 15, 2008 at 9:28 AM
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Great to hear a different point of view and exerience. Trust me, most of us here on blogit aren't here to judge but to learm about all aspects of life and yours contributes to that.
posted by
vogue
on May 15, 2008 at 2:08 AM
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seriously, then why do waste a guy's life????
I can't understand why people do this to others??????
Sorry I asked thi question....
posted by
Star5_
on May 14, 2008 at 10:43 PM
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You have to be true to yourself above all - good people will still love and respect you, trust me!
posted by
VictoriaP
on May 14, 2008 at 9:59 PM
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Blogit community
Evastars, welcome to Blogit, love. Unhappiness in a marriage led to courage for expression of your feelings about yourself and heterosexuality. Now you only need to stand your ground with your husband lovingly. Good luck hun. An open person like yourself offers a valuable asset to the Blogit community. In it we learn about other people, and help each other. Take care, love.
posted by
BC-A
on May 14, 2008 at 9:27 PM
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