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Azur
'Melodrama Queen?' I don't think so. Your mind must be working so fast - I'm surprised you can pin one thought down.
I've read and re-read your 'Unsaid' blog, but I can't comment as I feel guilty for even reading the posts - guilty of reading a diary of your soul.
posted by
johnmacnab
on February 26, 2008 at 5:20 AM
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Your little escape sounded peaceful and serene....
...focus on those thoughts.
posted by
ginnieb
on February 25, 2008 at 6:55 AM
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I'm praying for you that there is only good news ahead. I love to think
of the endless sea to shore when times are bad for me.
posted by
Kabu
on February 24, 2008 at 8:57 PM
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Azur, there is nothing more horrible than not being able to write when one wants to. I think it has happened to all of us at one time or another. You are doing fine though, I kind of like that phrase " the lake is the sky is the lake..." :-)
posted by
Sinome
on February 24, 2008 at 8:52 PM
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azur, when the stars are just right and a certain type of song plays,
I am again on the roof of the Hotel Miramar in Rio, in the arms of my man, dancing as though it were all being filmed in slow breezy motion.
It is hot, there are a million stars spattered all over the sky overhead and around us, the music is live and is the soft early bossa nova and I am dressed like an Italian movie star and so is he.
I'm doing more flashbacks this year, flashes of joyous moments, shortlived as they were....and am trying to stay inside them for just a few minutes more.
And in that mirrored sky on the lake and over the rooftops, God watches over us, every one.
posted by
benzinha
on February 24, 2008 at 12:31 PM
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Worrying about the unknown is exhausting
It's hard to fight a feeling of wrongness that has no name. Your mind, when it can't find a single target, starts to consider all the possibilities, and tries to battle them all at the same time.
I've been there, and it was the worst I'd ever felt, both mentally and physically. I didn't want to be sick, but kept hoping that something--anything--would crop up in the tests, so at least I'd know what I was dealing with. Every test that came back "healthy", was bittersweet. Okay, I didn't have cancer: rule that out, and add another 10 possibilities to the list.
Don't worry about being melodramatic--better to talk about it than keep it all bottled up!
I'll keep you in my prayers until the results are in 
posted by
Sira890
on February 24, 2008 at 10:04 AM
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I did not know you were ailing. As for the pain, you are not a melodrama queen. Only someone who deals with chronic pain can understand. I know I have debilitating migraines. I shall put on my prayer list with honor and I am sure our Father will affords some relief! sam
posted by
sam444
on February 24, 2008 at 6:24 AM
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lovely azur dear............
very good escape indeed my dear..........
posted by
__Purple_Mermaid11__
on February 24, 2008 at 5:37 AM
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What a lovely way to escape, even if it is just for a short time.
posted by
TAPS.
on February 23, 2008 at 7:00 PM
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Dear Azur,
When I was in the hospital for surgery, I looked out the window at night. The moon was aligned with Saturn. My mother was alive then. I would wait for her call at night. Afterwards, my view comforted me. May your memory bring you comfort before your surgery. My blessings, love! 
posted by
BC-A
on February 23, 2008 at 4:51 PM
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