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Thank you all so much for your lovely comments...much appreciated.
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 25, 2007 at 8:50 AM
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Re: Part of being a stong independant person...
I am glad you wrote this as this is how I have felt many times
big girls dont cry especially in front of your kids
posted by
Lanetay
on July 24, 2007 at 9:07 PM
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shy
emotions are tricky and sometimes we dont know why the tears or why they dont come at the right time, but I hope things keep getting better for you and the kids
posted by
Lanetay
on July 24, 2007 at 9:05 PM
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Part of being a stong independant person...
is to cry...we are told as little kids that big kids dont cry....dont cry dont cry....thats just stupid...cry all ya want too...I cry at movies at stupid chat shows at tv series...I cry whenever the feeling comes up...I never use too...I too was a hold it in kind of person who was too ashamed to cry...why should I cry my life isnt that bad it could be so much worse...I should be happy...but to be happy you need to cry...you need to feel anger and pain and hurt...you need to feel it all thats how you know when you are truely happy and not just pretending to be. Holding on to anger will make you a bitter person...you will eventually turn your back on everyone and just complain about everything and since you are not that kind of person...I say feel the burn baby lol...its not easy when you first start and it takes a long while to get use to it...but once you have released all that crap you will find it easier to cry when you need too and tell people when they are pissing you off, just let your feelings out as you have them...its very freeing and very very satisfying lol...
Good luck with your candle magic..Im a big fan of candle magic and healing stones...
Blessed Be
posted by
Problem_Girl
on July 24, 2007 at 6:49 PM
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50 poems is a great achievement.
posted by
A-and-B
on July 24, 2007 at 2:29 PM
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You sound so strong and resilient.
You have made it through so much! Vent a little.
posted by
justanotherskinnybitch
on July 24, 2007 at 12:11 PM
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I look forward to some interesting posts, Madam - and you're right -
it's healthier to be honest with yourself at least even if you can't always reveal the truth to others - but the blog is a great opportunity to speak the truth and see how people react.
posted by
Antonionioni
on July 24, 2007 at 9:21 AM
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Such a wonderful thing is happening to you. You are healing and growing and flowering. I am happy to sit and listen as you grow out some of this anger. The anger has served you well, the way you kept it inside was just what you needed to do... then. Now it is a time for a different way of dealing with your anger. This is wonderful... a new page in the history of you.~ Peace and blessings and faith, OTA
posted by
Blue_feathers
on July 24, 2007 at 3:53 AM
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MadamShyness
posted by
jacentaOld
on July 24, 2007 at 3:38 AM
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Thanks _teddy_ .....I intend too.
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:50 AM
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Hold on to your Self, Max...to your Heart...
posted by
teddypoet_TheGoodByeFade
on July 24, 2007 at 2:49 AM
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Thanks so much - angel_of_the_night
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:38 AM
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Thanks WileyJohn
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:37 AM
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That's a good way to put it...RedHeadedGypsy..
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:36 AM
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Wow, FoliageGold ....you have been through quite alot....I am very sorry.
same as you - you don't know my life story, I have been here for four years (blogit) - most here know everything....I don't think I can write it in short hand like you, but I will have a good go....LOL....ok.... sexually abused as a child, sister killed by drunk driver, had own place at age 15, got involved with drugs, attacked in my own home by three men, court apperance, cervical cancer(now cleared) have two children, brother committed suicide, domestic violence. living in and out of a refuge.....(I have missed out a good few)...LOL...but I am sure you get the gist..
Thank you so much for your support and encouragement.
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:35 AM
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ahhh thanks A-and-B
so are you both!
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:26 AM
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Offy
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:25 AM
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MaggieMae
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:25 AM
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lovelyladymonk
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:24 AM
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Thanks Azur ....
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:24 AM
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Pat_B ...you are so right.
Thanks for sharing.
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 24, 2007 at 2:23 AM
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That sounds so much like myself....
you have a lot to be proud of though. Maybe you should be a wreck, maybe you're not still perfect; but you're here and you're a decent person. That counts for a hell of a lot
posted by
dark_mistress_again
on July 23, 2007 at 10:06 PM
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MadamShy
You've done jolly well with your life kiddo, hang in there, better4 days ahead............
posted by
WileyJohn
on July 23, 2007 at 10:02 PM
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It's like that pressure cooker
If you forget to make sure the steam valve can release steam, eventually the whole thing will explode all over the kitchen.
posted by
RedHeadedGypsy
on July 23, 2007 at 5:15 PM
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Madam - Wonderful! Now you've got it. It's the process of shedding the
skin, 'given' to you. You no longer need the protective coating because you now know you can do it yourself. Many here on Blogit already know my story, but you do not. Quickly... After the birth of my last child (see my blog tonight, "Those American Boys") I went into a deep, post-partum depression and was put on myriad drugs that helped me gain weight to the tune of 247 pounds. I developed Type 2 diabetes because of this and was put on more drugs. And I also turned to alcohol. One day I, 'woke up' and realized that I was killing myself. I was ready to hurt. To feel the pain. Long story short, within 8 months I was off all drugs, I now weigh 140 pounds and my diabetes is completely under control. I still struggle with the alcohol, but I'm in AA now and that really helps. Yes! Let it go! Shed that skin. I'm right there with you.................
posted by
FoliageGold
on July 23, 2007 at 4:56 PM
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You're great!
posted by
A-and-B
on July 23, 2007 at 4:31 PM
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posted by
Offy
on July 23, 2007 at 3:40 PM
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madam...........
Pat B said it best. She's a wise woman. I do hope you can work it out and be happy. Keep your faith in God and cry, it soothes and heals.
posted by
MaggieMae
on July 23, 2007 at 3:36 PM
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posted by
lovelyladymonk
on July 23, 2007 at 3:32 PM
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One thing I have learnt, and learnt only recently
is that you have to give yourself permission to be present in whatever emotion you are feeling. I used to be mad at myself for feeling sad, or missing someone, or feeling overwhelmed. Once I gave myself permission to feel what I was feeling it was easier and those moods would pass more quickly.
posted by
Azur
on July 23, 2007 at 3:29 PM
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You hit the nail right on the head with this post!
We only think we can stuff the bad things out of sight and act like they never happened. But the old resentments at the old unfairness, at the plain mean things that happen to us -- they keep eating away at our protective shell. So we have to give ourselves permission to be open. To weep, to let the healing tears wash our faces, to blow our noses and wail if we need to. Otherwise we never get to the point where we can put an arm around someone in understanding when we see them trying to stuff the bad things out of sight and act like everything's okay. We have to give ourselves permission to heal.
posted by
Pat_B
on July 23, 2007 at 3:23 PM
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