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- You are absolutely right. I did get some orders from the doctor to lose the weight I'd gained since last October. That is going to get me away from the computer more and I DO need to take a break. I am out of my angst again; yesterday made me get real. I need to obsess about exercise! I don't want a recurrence which is what the doctor was concerned about. Thanks for your honesty! I need that!!
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on March 16, 2006 at 11:05 AM
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cee
First, congratulations on your good health news!
Second, (now don't take this badly), you're getting on my nerves here. You have to get busier woman. You have too much time to spend rehashing and writing about what was or is. Get moving, get cooking, get cleaning, take classes, whatever will get your mind trained into a productive state. Really. It works when you are grieving the loss of anything...
posted by
FactorFiction
on March 16, 2006 at 10:02 AM
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Why, Thank You, fourfive!
What a nice thing to say. I just passed my latest post cancer tests today (relief!) and I'm still cancer free except the doctor quite seriously told me to lose the 20 lbs. I'd gained since October (my breakup with Mike btw) because breast cancer recurrence happened more often in women who gained weight! That woke me up out of my funk for sure. Mike or no Mike, I won't lose my life if I can help it. Plus the young woman who did the mammogram said, "You've been through a lot, haven't you?" Then she said, "And you haven't lost your smile!" The first comment I read when I got home was yours. I received some important messages today that I will take to heart. No coincidence!
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on March 15, 2006 at 3:57 PM
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please don't loose your smile
I guess that's why I choose to feel love and not to get lost in love unless it's for a moment
posted by
fourfive
on March 15, 2006 at 7:41 AM
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Sweet Muser-
Oh, quite the contrary, dear lady.
You didn't hurt my feelings at all. I meant that I fell outside of your definition one would usually associate with "angst." I do have a tendency to write from the heart and my unhappiness is bleeding all over the place at the moment. I get a little funky everytime I go to the oncologist which is tomorrow. It has been a little over a year and a month. I have no reason to believe there's anything wrong; no little voices telling me anything. The real problem is I just miss my friend. My mind is logically telling me the right thing, but lately my heart has been "homesick." Thanks for leaving me such a nice long message.
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on March 14, 2006 at 10:20 PM
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Hi Cee...I don't remember saying anything that I thought might make you
think I'm shaking my head...or my finger. Of course, I don't have the best memory in the world, either! If I hurt your feelings, I'm sorry...it wasn't intended. It does make me sad to see you so sad, so unhappy. I have had heartbreak in my life; I am just a very private person...I don't talk about it. It is in the past where for me it belongs. I also know that when I least expected it, I found love again. The only thing I can say is what I say to myself...The serenity prayer...it saved me, it comforted me, it gave me strength again...and I am wiser for it. I sometimes wonder if all the years I spent "beating my head against the proverbial wall" trying to change the unchangeable had anything to do with the present state of my braincells! NAH! I hope you have a peaceful night...and get some sleep.
posted by
muser
on March 14, 2006 at 8:12 PM
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OOhhhhhhhh, brettnik
most days I'm okay. It's like I've said I can feel our cosmic minds bump a lot the last couple of weeks so it makes me wonder what's happening in his life that he would like to really contact me about. Time will tell. I've even had a headache in the morning when I get up and I never have headaches.
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on March 14, 2006 at 9:53 AM
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I heard this song, too and it IS depressing as all get out.
I'm sorry but I think you're right. He can't be involved with you in any way and live the life he thinks is right. BUTTTT...the good news is that you will get over it and you might even fall in love with your hubby all over again...Can't say I had an affair, but did have one of the heart I suppose, even if no one really knew. The man I was friends with recommited himself to his wife and we couldn't be friends any more because it reminded him of the time when he had doubts. We don't speak to this day, but I'm glad I was there for him emotionally, if never physically, during this hard time.
posted by
brettnik
on March 14, 2006 at 8:15 AM
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