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Oh, Cee, I'm so sorry you have that horrible disease......
My heart goes out to you. I understand you can help a lot of people through troublesome marriages if you can get your book written and published. I so hope you can as I can see it's something you really want to do.
I pray you can do this as I see you're determined and that desire keeps you going and gives you strength. God bless you, Dear Cee, and you go, girl! 
posted by
MaggieMae
on February 8, 2006 at 3:59 PM
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Maggie, you said a mouthful!
Well, Mike has been carved into my brain since I met him back in '71. I
have put him back on the shelf, I really have. He won't bother me - he IS Mr. Monogamous. I have no plans to put myself in that position of being vulnerable to loving another ever again. I can do that by concentrating on my marriage and keeping it strong!
Yes, I know how special my Jay is. He has his own demons to fight and this whole set of events help both of us face them together. It showed us where the weak spots were in the fabric of our relationship and we don't intend on letting them get to that point again. Our marriage was in trouble months and months before Mike entered the picture. The timing - well, God was with us every step of the way. He's with us still in keeping us mindful of our paths. Mike's 1500 miles away and not moving as far as I know. Me neither.
Thanks for your concerns and your words. Jay doesn't read my blog, by the way. By the time I work this into a book, the names will be changed. And the point of view is going to be about how our marriage survived. No, he doesn't want to read about my sexual romps of college days. We had plenty of our own...... But write about what just happened to me, I must. I've got to get it out while my mind still remembers and while my body holds up. (Parkinson's threatens both!) My time left is limited. I just have to keep my writing to "x" amount of hours so that when Jay's at home, I am present for HIM!
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on February 7, 2006 at 5:22 PM
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Cee.......
I think you are a very fortunate woman, for Jay to go through this and now, he's reliving it with you in your blog. That is some man you've got there. I hope you're never tempted to hurt him like that again. I know you say you're 100% his, I pray you mean it.
Mike seems carved into your brain, can you really put him behind you - you know you must do that, don't you?
I hope he never bothers you again and that you can make it all up to Jay. He's special, I tell you. My husband would have put me out and there would be no forgiving on his part. I hope you know what you've got there.
Take care, be happy, and God bless both of you.
posted by
MaggieMae
on February 7, 2006 at 4:22 PM
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Dear FactorFiction
It certainly has been a whirlwind. Thanks for being a reader and for sticking with me through there finally FINAL days! Now I'll fill in the middle and I hope as completely as I did our college days together.
Thanks for the happy news on my latest cancer search. Whew! It's always a wee bit unnerving until you get the report.
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on February 7, 2006 at 12:31 PM
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Phew. I am all caught up now.
What whirlwind of a time. And such a mature man you have for a husband... I doubt I could handle the analogous situation with as much grace.
I am very glad to hear your test results were good! 
posted by
FactorFiction
on February 7, 2006 at 11:55 AM
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Thanks Doc -
Thank you for being a reader! I appreciate your coming by!
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on February 7, 2006 at 11:38 AM
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Thanks Angel!
I appreciate that! I am at peace. No tears. Now if I can get obsessed to take off the 20 lbs. I've piled on since October. I must be a stress eater! I'm dressed to exercise but now I need to GET there! I AM happy! I will be ME again! Free of angst full of love; I'm alive!!
Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on February 7, 2006 at 11:36 AM
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Cee,
Good to see you, "Happy", it shows in your writing today!
Angela
posted by
anglofinspirtion
on February 7, 2006 at 11:25 AM
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I Look Forward
posted by
Dr_JPT
on February 7, 2006 at 11:07 AM
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