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mikebrown
First, thank you for the compliment....I know how discriminating you are in women! Next, maybe now you will understand why I come down on you so hard sometimes in your posts....mama bear that I am....I don't want you to look back and feel too terribly dumb....I mean, hindsight is alway going to be 20/20 and that's part of the fun of life, actually....in some areas...but, not in all.....thanks for coming over....
posted by
Krisles
on October 26, 2005 at 9:07 PM
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holy crap
you were damn good looking.
but aside from that, your story makes me wonder how stupid i'll think I was at the age i am now (19) a few years down the road. i mean, i know i'm stupid...but HOW stupid...i guess time will tell.
the good looks, the innocence...i had no idea we were so similar. (kidding...sort of)
but seriously, reading something like this really, really makes me think. we always think we know the score and know exactly what we're doing...until we get a little older and realize we didn't know anything. life is funny that way. you really only learn by driving on and rolling with the punches as you go. but you must've been so fuckin scared...i can't really empathize...except for that MY dad was pretty much just a sperm donor, too. after i was 4, anyway.
posted by
mikebrown
on October 25, 2005 at 8:47 PM
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Queen
Thank you....you are so special to me....you know that, don't you? I appreciate you and your comment so much.
posted by
Krisles
on October 20, 2005 at 7:19 PM
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Brimstone
I can't tell you how much your comment means to me.....you are such a dear. And, like I told Cunning...a few regrets are okay....they just mean I've lived.....add a little flavor to the saga....something that might inspire some poetry of my own someday! You'll have to go back and read the beginning of my story with this man if I ever do finish it....I've tried to be balanced....he wasn't anymore or anyless than that, a man....a person like me....
posted by
Krisles
on October 20, 2005 at 7:18 PM
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KRIS
Can't stop staring at that photo...knowing how young you were and what you were dealing with....then........with your young mind. I think you are an awsome woman of great foresight and power.......you've obviously always had it......you are an extremely beautiful woman................and not just photo wise. Thanks for sharing such a special and intimate time in your life.......that I am sure a great many of us can identify with. You are really special.
posted by
ALWAYSALOVER
on October 20, 2005 at 5:00 PM
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I marvel at your strength, Krisles. Your story, the complete story, is a inspriration to many and you may or may not realize that. God works wonders through so many unknowing people...
Have no regrets - (your story is not yet finished!) And I, for one, look forward to reading the whole epic!
posted by
bwFrampton
on October 20, 2005 at 4:58 PM
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jojo
Thank you....that is so sweet and, I'm sure, true....we're all in this together and I've shared many a story with other women....no matter the age, or era...some things don't really change that much. I appreciate your understanding.
posted by
Krisles
on October 20, 2005 at 12:22 PM
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Krisles
It is so amazing the things that we go through in our lives. Things we would never imagine going through, and yet they lead us to miracles. Thank you for opening up and sharing this part of your life. Somewhere out there in blogit land I bet there is someone who is nodding their head because they have been there, done that.
posted by
jojostar
on October 20, 2005 at 11:59 AM
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Blackcat
You just said all you needed to.....and beautifully. Thank you.
posted by
Krisles
on October 20, 2005 at 11:33 AM
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Cunning
I hear you, and I completely agree....said my own version of those words a hundred times over the years to many people. And, honestly, I never really spent a more than probably 5 minutes thinking about it over the years.....until I had my grandchildren....and then just here and there the thoughts came. It's hard to explain...and I'll just tell you that one of the great things about the path of life is that we continue to evolve and learn and things that we think and feel strongly about adjust and grow and change as our experiences do. I never really had that many "wow" moments with parenthood...I just tucked her in like an extension of myself...she was like and extra skin in a lot of ways she survived in spite of my lack of wonder! But, grandchildren....that was a whole different experience...I was a different person by the time they came along....looked at the world a little differently...looked at roots, family, heritage....saw how Michele looked at those things, too.... I can't explain it all here without writing a book....but let's just say that I don't see getting through life with just a few regrets as a bad thing at all....and getting through life with none at all as meaning not really living or taking any chances maybe. So, while I agree with you, and love you for putting your arms around me....and believe me, your shoulder is pretty soggy right now....it's okay, just reflective.....there's a couple of more that I have... I strongly believe that our best qualities.....flipped over and looked at, are our worst or weakest. My fearless heart, courage and ability to go with the flow are some of my best qualities....flip them over and you see foolhardiness and a failure to plan or take action at some junctures when I should that have led to some things in life that probably were not what would have been the best for me or mine...but, hey, that's how I learned to dance...just like you said!! (See, with no sleep, I blather even more.....)
posted by
Krisles
on October 20, 2005 at 11:32 AM
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Kris... not sure what to say... but I do understand.
posted by
-blackcat
on October 20, 2005 at 11:26 AM
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Reni
Thank you for that sweet and understanding comment....means a lot...it really does. I know you understand....and I will finish the story someday. It really caught me off guard...the emotions that came up.
posted by
Krisles
on October 20, 2005 at 11:20 AM
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I'm about to say the ugliest cliche
the one that no one ever wants to hear. Ready? Everything happens for a reason. Stop your eyes from rolling -- I see you! Nothing happens by accident. I really really believe that. This picture shows a girl at a crossroads. Forever is ahead of her and things that will happen that she would NEVER EVER change. Some bad things are ahead, but those things are necessary ingredients. This picture shows a young woman about to dance. Regrets are useless steps in the dance, and they don't take into account the serendipitous events which change the course of history. The smaller an object gets in the rearview mirror, the more distorted the view of it. Yesterdays were the wrapping paper. The Present is the gift.
posted by
CunningLinguist
on October 20, 2005 at 11:03 AM
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Oh, Kris...
Pictures do seem to bring it back, don't they? I remember I ran across one and it started a whole string of blogs devoted to my father--which continue until today.
Your daughter is so lucky to have you--and you her. Looking forward to the rest of your story. When you're ready to tell it, that is...
posted by
Renigade
on October 20, 2005 at 10:42 AM
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