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SilverMoon7
SilverMoon7...Thanks for the correction...It is always about us isn't it? 
I have gone from being the most giving person that I know to one of the most selfish. It sounds bad on the surface but the way things were, were WAY out of whack. I did things for people in huge ways and what I got in return was not in my best interest. As in overstepping boundaries and being used.
Thank you SO much for the respect and encouragement. I am a needy soul as you may know. All the love I find here on the blog is like medicine for my owies ... 
((((SilverMoon7)))
posted by
mysteria
on October 13, 2005 at 7:59 AM
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mysteria,
You have a hell of a lot of respect from me. and yes, you do deserve the things that give you pleasure and peace. Find them and indulge them. You're beautiful!
posted by
SilverMoon7
on October 13, 2005 at 4:43 AM
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correction
whoops, I meant to say that it all had nothing to do with anyone else. Not that it had nothing to do with me. Of course it was about me.
posted by
SilverMoon7
on October 13, 2005 at 4:40 AM
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CB_Andrews
mmmm good one...I wonder who I could choose to be that would allow the most insight into myself...maybe someone toally opposite of me in several ways.
posted by
mysteria
on October 12, 2005 at 12:23 PM
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mysteria
I have also heard one, "The best way to figure out who you really are is to be someone you are not."
posted by
CB_Andrews
on October 12, 2005 at 10:44 AM
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cosy
I still don't know me either. Sometimes I cannot fathom how mystified and blown away I am over this existence. Even something as mundane as a light socket can cause epiphanous erruptions in me....((((Cosy))) Mi Amore' 
posted by
mysteria
on October 12, 2005 at 10:35 AM
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SilverMoon7
I think it would be extremely healing for me to keep this self loving attitude of yours in mind when I find myself using solitude in counterproductive ways. It sounds totally like my cup of tea you know...the darkness, the decadence, the hedonism, the self indulgence. I am a really cool person and I totally deserve these kinds of things. I want to be respected most of all. Perhaps I should think about the ways I may be disrespecting myself.
Oh! SilverMoon7, please do indulge me with any anecdote of your liking. I am thrilled to read of your person.
posted by
mysteria
on October 12, 2005 at 10:33 AM
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gomedome
I hadn't quite looked at in from such a vista. How cool to get instant horizon widening affects from you. NiCe !
posted by
mysteria
on October 12, 2005 at 10:28 AM
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Mysteria
I will say this...sometimes I go somewhere where no one knows me...alone...far away...and there I discover who I become...perhaps who I become is me...but till this day...I still don't know me
posted by
cosy
on October 12, 2005 at 10:21 AM
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mysteria,
I can't agree with this more. To bore you with an anecdote, There was a time in my twenties when I had this ritual of spending every Sunday completely holed up. I listened to Dead Can Dance, I drank, I drew pictures, I read The Sandman comicbook series, I listened to NPR at night. I indulged in everything dark that pleased me. It was the most healing time I'd ever experienced. It was pure hedonistic, selfish, indulgence, that had nothing to do with me. Soon after, I cultivated a taste for going the movies by myself, which was also a healing and comforting thing for me. Among other things, I learned how to attain peace, and to be at peace with myself, and to enjoy my own company. It was a small thing, but it was all for me. Not a second of it was wasted on anyone else.
posted by
SilverMoon7
on October 12, 2005 at 10:15 AM
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mysteria - I'll vouch for the validity of the quote
but coming close while not quite getting there is much better. Once the discipline of achieving the ultimate goal is removed, the sense of purpose is very hard to replace. Take it from someone who retired early, only to realize that some people are not cut out for early retirement.
posted by
gomedome
on October 12, 2005 at 10:10 AM
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