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posted by
Renigade
on July 24, 2005 at 8:35 AM
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Thank you all for your wonderful support and comments
I really appreicate them...take care
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 14, 2005 at 6:14 AM
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Your writing,music,kids and time will
help. But it just takes time...till then do what you can and just BE.
posted by
Whacky
on July 13, 2005 at 9:12 PM
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I wish I could see you and let you talk about this. I agree you need to talk to someone and I am mad at your doctor. Take care
posted by
Azur
on July 13, 2005 at 8:35 PM
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Symphony...
It's okay not to want the anti-depressants...but please go and talk to someone...I, too, have a tendency to tell people I'm okay even if I'm not and I know from past experience this is the WORST thing you can do to yourself.
As you've said yourself, these past few weeks have been very difficult for you...So please remember that and try to be a little more fair with yourself. It's takes a good deal of time and self-patience to heal from the types of trauma you've been through...And hiding your feelings IS NOT the answer.
It's okay to be sad and feel lost...to feel bitter, angry...even empty...feel whatever it is you need to feel and don't judge yourself or let others judge you. At the same time, please don't let such feelings overwhelm you. Don't be afraid to reach out. Most importantly, remember that with time, you WILL heal. Remember that's also okay to laugh and smile and be happy and do the things you love doing.
You're in my thoughts and prayers, love...Let me know if I can do anything at all for you. We'll chat soon. In the meantime, get some rest and look after yourself. God bless.
posted by
lovelyladymonk
on July 13, 2005 at 6:49 PM
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Symphony,
Do get some sleep if you haven't been getting a good 8 hours regularly. That is one of the first things to do to get rid of stress and/or depression. I understand your dislike for drugs. There are a million of them out there, and one of them might be perfect, but finding the perfect one is nearly impossible. Avoiding them is easier. They aren't much of an answer unless they treat a physical problem.
Everything has hit you at once. If you are Christian, Justsouno has given you good advice. Other than that, all I can recommend is that you get outdoors. A walk to a park and conversations with people you meet can be very relieving of stress and depression. Sunshine, outdoor air, plants, birds, all of those things can work miracles, particularly if they help crowd unpleasant thoughts from your mind. Go out of the city with your family if you can.
Things will be back to normal soon. Hold to your guidepost while drifting in the flow.
JJ
posted by
Jack_Flash
on July 13, 2005 at 3:14 PM
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jacenta
Thank you for being you and leaving me this wonderful comment, I am truly touched...I am going to get some rest as I am tired....hopefully a new day brings a new sense of peace - heres hoping.....take care and thank you ever so much
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:50 PM
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LizzyMorrow
I think you are right, I have not been sleeping very well so sleep sounds good...thank you for your comment
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:49 PM
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Dearest SYMPHONY,
It makes me sad to read you are feeling so much inner emotion and pressure. Life at times is a super highway or even a pressure cooker. You are so beautiful, so young and you have those precious children.
If I could make everything all better for you, believe me I would. Once my little daughter climbed on my lap and asked so innocently, "Mommy, why you cry?" When Mommy hurts, so do our children. That little girl is now twenty-four years old and has her own little girl. The other day, my daughter said, she was crying and my precious granddaughter said to her, "Mommy, why you crying? I just can't take that Mommy." So cute and so very precious.
Symphony, life has seasons, sometimes it can be so hard. Dwell on what is good. Take one day at a time.Things in life will never be ideal and perfect. When you need to cry. Do it! I remember crying in the bathroom so my kids wouldn't see me and soon I had five children standing outside the bathroom door, concerned about their mommy. They are so smart and understand so much more than we think they do. I just told them, I feel sad. I was honest with them and they grew up to be such loving, caring adults. Symphony, reach out to those who care for you. Sometimes life is overwhelming, but remember all of us have hurt, dissapointments and sorrow that we must overcome. Pray for God's strength to help you through each day. You know, if you were not such a caring person, things that you CANNOT control would not affect you so much and that is exactly why YOU are so special. Please Symphony, when you feel sad remember, I care! Take Care of yourself and realize your only human and life isn't just a bowl of cherries. But, look at your wonderful children and know you are truly blessed! Love, Jacenta
posted by
jacentaOld
on July 13, 2005 at 1:43 PM
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I just went through this yesterday
I think sometimes we get down for reasons. Sometimes it's because our soul and mind needs time to reflect and rest. There's nothing wrong with it at all unless it begins to consume you where you can't get out of it. The best thing to do is rest and watch television. Get some sleep and let your mind rest and not think of things that get you down. I did that and today I feel much better.
posted by
Narek
on July 13, 2005 at 1:38 PM
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scriber
I have not for what seems like so long....but I want too
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:25 PM
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Thanks Vibrance
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:22 PM
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Symp--are you still singing?
love--scriber
posted by
scriber
on July 13, 2005 at 1:21 PM
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ZenLady05
I understand what your saying really I do…but this is not depression this is stress…I know the difference…but again thank you…I do appreciate your comments.
I get days of depression and yes I do control it - I have too! But when things get too much the stress and pressure take over making me unable to cope.
I don’t need to pop a pill to get me through, what I need is to have my peace of mind and my strength back - it takes a lot to bring me down!
I am not letting anything win…I am letting hidden feelings pour - that is all!
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:21 PM
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I will reach out to him...thats a promise ....thanks Justsouno
...thanks for understanding and never judging me
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:20 PM
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don't hide
Your light shines too bright..go rest my sweet one. Love, Vib
posted by
Vibrance
on July 13, 2005 at 1:17 PM
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Control It?
I want to be like all the others that have commented re: your previous posts (I've been reading them for the last 10 minutes) I want to be "motherly" and reassuring. But, it sounds to me like you've had enough of that. Sure you're hurting and you are obviously trying your best to feel better. But, IT'S NOT WORKING! You're unable to CONTROL this.....it is CONTROLLING you. I've dealt with depression and it will kick the crap out of you if you let it. Watching your diet and exercising is good but will only take you so far. There are a gazzilion anti-depressants out there. Find a top notch psychiatrist. If you think you already have one, get a second opinion. You must find the right medication to help you deal with this problem. Do it for yourself and for your children.
Zoe
posted by
ZenLady05
on July 13, 2005 at 1:12 PM
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Symphony, hello dear one. I am going to read the other post now
but I wanted to tell you how very important you are to me. Each day whether I comment or not I read you and I love what I see. I see myself a long time ago. A young mother struggling to make it but happy to have little ones and enjoying them. Frightened by some things and above others.
You have been through a lot, really a lot lately. You know that accident thing is a ton of stress. Writing the book about your brother brought up all that pain. Then the sorry, bad, horrible people bombed your home. Whether they got your house or not it is your home town.
Don't give up. You can e mail me and rant any time you like. I will write back and forth with you, but I don't want you to let this go on for a very long time without some help. I am not pressuring you, but if you will just call out to Jesus and tell him you need this stuff to stop, you need some peace, joy and happiness in your heart no matter what is happening around you. If you mean it, If you can believe it He will do it.
Love and Joy to you, Justsouno
posted by
Justi
on July 13, 2005 at 1:11 PM
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too long to explain ZenLady05
I have lived with depression all my life but I control it - without pills...because I have had pills for too much of my life already and I deal with things the only way I know how and thats writing...life has been hectic...I need to move on...just finding the strength to do so...thanks for reading.
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 13, 2005 at 1:03 PM
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Where does one begin?
I haven't had time to read all your previous posts. Cut to the chase...........how long have you been feeling so bad........so sad? Your last post SCREAMS depression to me and I should know, I've been there.
Zen
(Real name Zoe)
posted by
ZenLady05
on July 13, 2005 at 12:58 PM
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