Go to MY PERCEPTIVE REFLECTION!!
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- Go to I AM NOT LEAVING BECAUSE OF THIS EMAIL I AM LEAVING BECAUSE IT'S RIGHT!!!!!
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 3, 2005 at 11:39 AM
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Symphony - do what you must... take care
posted by
littlemspickles
on July 3, 2005 at 6:17 AM
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Symphony,
I have tried to help you before. I don't know whether I actually did or not, but I will always take pleasure in doing anything I can to help. And don't think that it will bother me if you cry or whine or swear or anything else. I don't care about that, I only care about trying to help you. My email is still the same. If you don't have it, send a short one through Blogit so I can send mine. I don't want to bother you with something you don't want to read right now, so I will just wait to see if you want anything. I won't go into a lot here--it's too much like talking on TV.
JJ
posted by
Jack_Flash
on July 1, 2005 at 4:34 AM
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SYMPHONY, I know that you have heard of PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Syndrome), but perhaps you have not thought of it in regards to what happened to you. The things that you experienced have taken a toll on you and you are suffering from it. You really need some professional help to come through this quickly. For your sake and for the sake of your children talk to your doctor or talk to the police that took your report and ask for some help. I'm sure there is some agency that is set up for the counselling of survivors. You are the survivor of a terrible event. The emotions that run rampant after such a thing can devastate even a stoic person. For the tender hearted and vulnerable it is a terrible thing. Please seek some help and come back when you have worked through this. We will miss you. Love you and will pray for you.
posted by
TAPS.
on June 30, 2005 at 5:33 AM
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I COULDN'T GO WITHOUT THANKING YOU ALL FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been writing in an on line journal but its private…it’s soothing a part of me!
But because I have to come on line it’s a habit to check blogit and too be honest I wish I hadn’t because you people are the sweetest, beautiful, caring, wonderful souls there is!
I went back to my previous post and read your comments there and came to this blog and read the comments here and I am left with a feeling of guilt…leaving those who matter most!
This is a beautiful community…sometimes you get the odd one or two that shouldn’t be here but I guess that’s the way it happens in life and online
I am silly to let one blogger bother me even though they were a friend but I cant shake the feeling that their must be others who think of me this way too..
But I am not leaving because of the blogger
I am leaving because I don’t want people to see me this way…I feel weak!
and right now all I can write about is that tragic day (like I have on my other journal) so instead of boring you…or my lovely friends leaving wonderful comments like you have now - I think its best if I disappear for a while…(I hate being a pity case)
So many of your comments have touched me and healed a part of me…I love you all so much…I wish I could explain how much you all mean to me because life is too short for things to be left unsaid!
I so much want to be here with you and go back to normal but my heart is aching too much right now…
I will be popping in from time to time to read some of you because no matter how hard I try I cant leave altogether…I am always thinking of you….its an addiction!
I might even carrying on writing the new bloggers up once a week! (thinking on it)
I am going to go now and get on with healing myself…I was going to call a counsellor but after some thought …a counsellor has never helped me before…my writing has…that’s what I will continue to do.
Argh its so blimming horrible…here I was with every intention to leave and after reading your comments I feel like changing my mind…but I cant!!!
I must stick to my original plans - it wont stop me from missing you though!
I am going through different emotions, one minute I am numb, the next bitter then upset …its an cycle I know too well…I think that’s what bothers me the most!
So I am going to go now…I wont stay away too long…that I can promise…because I have many wonderful people here that I feel need me back as well as want me back…
So how can I possibly have that on my conscious too…I could not even read your comments without having to say something…its my nature I guess!
I will be thinking of each and everyone of you…even though I have never seen you, you are a big part of my life…I know you want to help me, I know that your wonderful souls want to reach for me…but I can do this by myself….but I want to thank each and everyone of you for being YOU …also thank you for the emails too.
There are not enough words to grab and explain….how much I appreciate you!
Take care…good bye for now…
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 30, 2005 at 4:12 AM
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Symphony,
Never in my wildest imagination did it occur to me that you made that last post up. Or that you write the sadder side of your soul for pity. A lot of us write to unveil the secrecy of our pasts, to come to terms with it, make peace, without burdening the people in our lives. Do whatever you need to do, but I truly hope you won't stay away too long or allow these thoughtless comments to sour you on the blog completely. You did witness a horrible, traumatic event, and it's not as though there is some yardstick of pain, that, because the man who drove the car is suffering, it invalidates your own fear, pain, guilt etc. Allow yourself to feel or it will not heal.
posted by
Blanche.
on June 30, 2005 at 12:41 AM
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Sym I been away for a while
but I'm hopeing that your decided to leave us, if anything having a support system where you can go to escape is much needed. For one person who turns there back, there are many who you can feel solitude in. You are a strong person, you will get throught this. I'll be keeping you in my prayes. ~Silly
posted by
SillySoul88
on June 30, 2005 at 12:11 AM
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Symphony
I can't even imagine the magnitude of what you're going through. It must have been horrible to have witnessed what you did. My prayers are with you, and I hope that you will find your way back to Blogit becuase while there are idiots on here that have no feeling, those who are worth caring about care about you too, and want to help you get through this in any way they can. Please feel free to email me if you need to talk.
posted by
tigerprincess
on June 29, 2005 at 8:30 PM
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symphony, I've missed a lot I think because I'm not sure what this is about
but I want you to know that you are a great person with a sensitive nature, hence the pain. I can't tell you all the insensitive emails I've received. You never get used to it, no matter what anyone says. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
posted by
Ariala
on June 29, 2005 at 8:15 PM
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Symphony
Don't go far sweetie. THeres lots of us here to rally round you, only a few insensitive folks ...and are they really that important? Only the aspect taht you considereed them "friend"...thats what hurts. YOu know who you are, and keep writing, poetry and journaling
posted by
MysticGmekeepr
on June 29, 2005 at 8:07 PM
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I don't suppose there could have been a misunderstanding? Nah, I guess not. It's not like you posted it in fiction. Very sorry that someone accused you of that. Many here do spin yarns and take on fake personas, but those who know you know that you are not one. I hope you find peace or at the very least a fun way to spend your time on your break!
posted by
Holy_Grail
on June 29, 2005 at 7:44 PM
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Symphony you are so loved and you will be missed so much;
however; you need to take care of yourself. I can not imagine one so callous. Yet I know there are those on here who appear to simply write to hurt. That is the bottom of the barrel while you are hurting. I have had to back off and leave only for short periods several times. There are people on here without feelings except for themselves. They preach to others all their wrongs and run in any direction for a click. Some would climb a tree to be able to hurt someone's feelings when they could stand on the ground and be nice. Take care little one I love you. Pray for them and forgive them so you are free of them in your life.
posted by
Justi
on June 29, 2005 at 5:10 PM
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Symph
There will always be cynical, mean spirited people in our lives. What makes you special is that you are a GREAT person ! Don't let one doorknob (that's Canadianese for shit for brains) deter you from being you.
Be mindful of the opinions of those you care about, ignore the crap of the people that live to mess you about, and at the end of the day, do what you know in your heart is right.
Don't leave here because of one ignorant person Symph,
posted by
DivineDiva
on June 29, 2005 at 5:07 PM
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I feel like pulling an Ariala and writing about this in my blog. lol. seriously, don't take it so seriously. first thing to develop is a thick skin. i have a good idea who she is, but probably won't identify her.
posted by
scriber
on June 29, 2005 at 3:41 PM
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SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST PIGS!
I hope no one treats them the same... I think.
posted by
homegirl
on June 29, 2005 at 3:40 PM
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If it means anything...
I don't think you come here looking for pity. I've always understood your need to write away the past. To deal with your emotions the only way you know how.
When I read that post, never for a minute did I think you would have made that up. So, keep writing. Fuck the skeptics.
posted by
RachelAnna
on June 29, 2005 at 9:21 AM
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Take Care of Yourself Symphony. We'll Be right here. Do what you have to do
posted by
I-R-William
on June 29, 2005 at 9:14 AM
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Symph, perhaps the roughest part of maturing is to learn to suffer fools
gladly. The emailer has now been unmasked to prominently reveal such a fool . Don't allow him/her to upset you further. Taking a break is a good idea. I'll miss you. Hurry back.
posted by
ARGUS
on June 29, 2005 at 8:51 AM
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some people bother others considerably
it's hard not to let them do such
and that on top of the tragedy you witnessed
my sympathies
posted by
Xeno-x
on June 29, 2005 at 8:42 AM
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Symphony...
Whoever this person is...GO TO HELL!!!! That anyone could send such an evil, thoughtless, cruel, disgusting e-mail without any regard for the depth of the situation is truly beyond me...
Take all the time you need away, love...I will miss you terribly, but just remember I'll be here when you feel up to returning...And so will your true friends.
I wish there were something more I could say or do for you...but there isn't. God bless, my friend.
posted by
lovelyladymonk
on June 29, 2005 at 8:35 AM
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SYMPHONY
What the hell could that person be thinking to write such a gawd awful email? I am so sorry sweet girl that anyone would do such a thing. I don't want you to leave, you will be missed very much. While you indicated you wrote about things that happened in your life remember you wrote about the good things too! Some of them put me in stiches. You have been through a horrible experience, something you will remember for the rest of your life, but you are NO FAILURE! You one of the nicest people on here and I sure wish there was something I could do to help. ((((HUGS))) Please don't be gone long, enjoy your time away to clear your head and remember you are loved by many through your good heart and words!!!
posted by
Offy
on June 29, 2005 at 8:30 AM
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Oh Symph...
...my heart aches for you...not just for what you have gone through but for that totally insensitive comment! You know what's best for you and for your children and your Mum too. I am so sorry that you are leaving but please don't lose touch...you are a good friend of mine and I'll miss you. I think you need to take time for yourself, for quiet contemplation...you have gone through traumatic shock and it's totally natural for you to feel sad. I've never ever thought of you as a complainer; someone looking for pity...I've NEVER seen you in that way. This is a forum for opening up...as much as anyone chooses to do..I do it too. Sometimes all it takes to set someone off is a negative comment...I would feel badly too...just please know there are so many good people here who truly feel for you. *hugs* sweetie. Take care of yourself and please email whenever you want to.
posted by
ginnieb
on June 29, 2005 at 8:20 AM
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Dearest SYMPHONY,
Just remember, I care. jacenta
posted by
jacentaOld
on June 29, 2005 at 6:31 AM
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Some people are so thoughtless...
I will miss you and do come back when the time is right. You have been through a terrible trauma and it will take time to work through it take comfort in your family and in the fact that you did all you could. My prayers are with you and the poor fellow who survived. Take Care,
posted by
Whacky
on June 29, 2005 at 6:13 AM
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symphony...Come back soon. Who wouldn't need a break after such a traumatic event !!(As for the aftermath, remember, you have far more courage than is needed to ignore insensitive emails.)
posted by
reasons
on June 29, 2005 at 6:10 AM
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katray
there are many people here that are great.....and they do "out do" the bad....but sometimes in life you can only take so much and that is how I am feeling now...
I am going to go now...
Take care all.......love ya all
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 29, 2005 at 5:55 AM
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gypsyredhead33
I could not leave forever as their are many people here that I adore..but the time has come for me to go....it feels right...I will miss you...I will pop in from time to time to read you......take care...email me anytime
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 29, 2005 at 5:53 AM
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What a cruel and insensitive jerk, whoever they are
I'm so sorry about this Symphony, but I do understand you needing a break. Please remember the good souls here far outnumber the cold ones. Hoping you won't be away too long. Take care.
posted by
Katray2
on June 29, 2005 at 5:49 AM
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Symph...
I hope at some point you can come back. And if I find out who that person is I'm going to eviscerate them completely.
posted by
RedHeadedGypsy
on June 29, 2005 at 5:35 AM
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Thank you for understanding, AnnAndBenjamin
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 29, 2005 at 5:32 AM
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symphony,
Ok. You are the best person to know what to do for yourself. Have a good vacation away from here.
Best wishes,
from us.
posted by
A-and-B
on June 29, 2005 at 5:08 AM
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