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Symphony,
Oh darling...what an awful experience. My heart is with you...and them too...
posted by
SincerityAnna
on July 3, 2005 at 5:15 AM
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Symphony
"a hero wins the day…I didn’t!"
No...a hero shows up when God asks him too, and leaves the results to God. I'd be VERY traumatized by that too and writing frantically just like you did. You can't find yourself in a situation like that, have the child die, and not have it impact you deeply. Be patient with yourself and give yourself a big hug from me in California. I think you were a God's hero! What would that little girls's last moments on earth have been like without your soft voice soothing her...you were her angel Symphony
posted by
MysticGmekeepr
on June 29, 2005 at 8:02 PM
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Symphony, my poor dear friend. I am so sorry that you had to endure this. You did all you could I am sure because that is your nature. Please go see your doctor and explain what happened. This is a lot to deal with. Take care
posted by
Azur
on June 29, 2005 at 9:51 AM
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Hey Symphony,
I just caught up with you. I want to email you when I have less noise present here (kids.)
For now just and hugs. Take good care of yourself in the meantime!
posted by
FactorFiction
on June 29, 2005 at 9:46 AM
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Symphony, please don't focus on the ONE IDIOT
Focus on the rest us who have told you what a hero you are and how proud of you we are. Think about all the comments from those who told you how amazing it was that God placed you there to be of comfort to a frightened, dying child.
Please remember those comments and stop fretting. We all love you so much but there's always one asshole in every crowd. Ignore him.
posted by
Passionflower
on June 29, 2005 at 9:23 AM
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jacenta
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 29, 2005 at 5:31 AM
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Dearest SYMPHONY,
I can not possibly imagine the grief you're feeling and I hurt for you. Symphony you are extremely special. Take comfort in knowing you did all you could humanly do.
jacenta
posted by
jacentaOld
on June 29, 2005 at 4:41 AM
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TO BLOGIT!!
The words you have chosen to give me have been so touching….so many of your comments made me cry…
So many have rang a truth and healed a little piece of me…I want to thank you all so very much for being there for me and for your wonderful support..
I could be here all day telling you how much I appreciate you all…but it just doesn’t seem enough…
I am hurting right now…and I don’t want you to see me this way…
I have lost many in my family…losing my brother and sister has been the worse for me and this tragic event has bought up my grieving feelings…depression has kicked in…I am not sure if I am grieving for the family that this happened to….or for myself..
I am confused!
Thank you very much for all thinking I am some kind of hero…but please, many would have done the same…because if you would have asked before the event happened if I would have done anything like that…I’d probably had said no….but something kicked in…I needed and wanted to help….but I failed…
The guilt and the “what ifs“…play over and the flashbacks of that innocent little girl dwells deeply…
My comfort is what most of you said that the daughter and mother are together…but what about the husband? (dad) will he find peace within?
I know I shouldn’t dwell on such things…but I cant seem to wipe that away!
I have been writing a lot since it happened (privately) and it is doing me wonders because sometimes (as you can see from my update post) people judge you in ways …but when you write for your eyes only…you don’t have to worry about what people think or who it hurts…and you certainly don’t have to feel like a PITY case.
So that’s what I will carrying on doing for now..
But please know I am carrying all of you in my heart….I can not thank you enough…I really cant!
I love you all so very much..
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 29, 2005 at 4:34 AM
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SYMPHONY
You sweet angel, you did everything possible for these poor folks. What a wonderful person you are! You were this child's last memory and as hard on you as it was, God meant for you to be there. It is just an awful set of events that unfolded before your eyes, traumatic, and so very sad. Symphony, you did more than anyone could have asked for. Now they are in the hands of their Creator, safe now.
posted by
Offy
on June 29, 2005 at 3:32 AM
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Symphony thank God for you. You made that little girl's last moments
as comfortable as possible. That is really a shocking thing, You are so brave and you have a heart as big as Texas. That is a big heart just ask Passionflower. I love you girl! Be blessed, drive carefully and take care of yourself.
posted by
Justi
on June 28, 2005 at 10:57 PM
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I'm so sorry, girl...What an amazing thing for this family
That you happened by though. I know you made the last few hours of that little girls life much more bearable and less frightening. You gave her a peace and comfort. She wasn't alone and scared. She had you there speaking with her, reassuring her.
You were so brave to do this. I'd give anything to be there and spend the night with you so I could bring you that same comfort. You need alot of hugs.
posted by
Passionflower
on June 28, 2005 at 8:44 PM
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Oh, SYMPHONY. What a horrible thing for you to go through. But, I am so glad that you were there for them.
posted by
TAPS.
on June 28, 2005 at 8:18 PM
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You are a hero
Just by being there for that little girl at the end. The comfort you must have given her had to take some of the fear away. Give yourself time to grieve, but think of how you comforted her.
Mike
posted by
mikea18
on June 28, 2005 at 8:11 PM
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Sweet Symphony...
I have no words to offer you...I can only say that the little one is with her mother now and I know they are grateful for your efforts...That poor man...I ache for him...And for you...
Please know you did everything you possibly could have...Even if you'd gotten to the little girl sooner, her injuries were just so incredibly massive.
Three years ago this coming October, a three year old girl was killed in the car park of my flat complex...She was taken to hospital, but nothing could be done for her...I'll never forget that night as long as I live.
The only suggestion I can offer you is to seek counseling...I know it's extremely painful to face, but if you don't you'll never be able to fully heal.
Please know you are not alone. Talk to anyone who is willing to listen. Don't be afraid to reach out...And please don't punish yourself for not being able to save them.
You have all my love, thoughts and prayers...If you need a chat, please let me know...I'll do whatever I can for you...
posted by
lovelyladymonk
on June 28, 2005 at 3:54 PM
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Symphony, My heart goes out to you on this tragic encounter you had.....
I don't have any words that can bring you instant comfort, or erase any of the sorrow you are feeling. You did what others would not even attempt. In my book you are still a hero. Take care of yourself, get drunk and cry all you want. I used too, still do sometimes.
Peace
posted by
I-R-William
on June 28, 2005 at 1:30 PM
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I hope you are okay. The emotional trauma from this will take a long time to get over, do whatever you can to help yourself through it. Thinking of you.
posted by
Julia.
on June 28, 2005 at 12:50 PM
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symphony -
please, please, please take care of yourself. cry, alot. ask for help. try to sleep. try to eat. and know that you did everything you could. you were an amazing presence in that family's life. in that child's life. an angel, as others have said. closeness to death often brings a sharpness to our passing days. this you will carry with you always. i pray peace for your heart and stillness for your soul. never forget, you found the strength to give something beautiful in the midst of suffering.
posted by
quetzal
on June 28, 2005 at 9:24 AM
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my heart is breaking for you! It sounds just plain aweful
I pray you get some rest tonight.
and yes, you are a hero.
posted by
homegirl
on June 27, 2005 at 9:50 PM
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Symphony
Even though you are, I know you don't want to hear about you being a hero. But, all true heroes feel the pain, and they feel like they should have done more.
Take care of yourself, and in time you will understand that you did everything that could have been done. And remember that it doesn't all have to make sense right away. Take your time and you can deal with this tragedy piece by piece.
I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say that we'll each try to be here for you to talk with if you need to.
best wishes
-smartdog
posted by
smartdog_670
on June 27, 2005 at 9:26 PM
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symphony - take care... you did your best...
things happen for a reason and though they may be hard to understand or accept, it is the way it is...
posted by
littlemspickles
on June 27, 2005 at 8:42 PM
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Oh Symphony, tears are falling from just reading....
May they rest in peace...Take care and know you did everything in your power to save them. A Higher Power stepped in...
posted by
Katray2
on June 27, 2005 at 7:05 PM
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Symp--you were very brave. Really did a lot of good..
posted by
scriber
on June 27, 2005 at 6:58 PM
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Just know you did everything you could
and the little girl and her mom are together now. Wish there was something I could do to ease your pain as you eased theirs.
God Bless you,
posted by
Whacky
on June 27, 2005 at 5:41 PM
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Symph
My heart breaks for you, and for those poor, sweet people that died in that awful crash. The only thing I can say is that you are a brave, brave girl. Keep writing, it will help, believe me.
Let us help you Symph, we all love you.
posted by
DivineDiva
on June 27, 2005 at 4:38 PM
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Symph...
Nothing I can add that hasn't already been said. Just know that your presence was a comfort to that little girl. She had an angel to help her move onto the next world.
posted by
RedHeadedGypsy
on June 27, 2005 at 4:06 PM
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symphony,
It was beyond your control. You were very brave and kind to go and help as much as you could. I can't say too many people would have done what you did for that family. It's not your fault. Take it easy and don't beat yourself up about it. You are certainly a hero. You helped the husband out, you were there for the little girl. What more could you have done? You should be proud of what you did.
posted by
poeticspoken
on June 27, 2005 at 3:46 PM
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Symphony,
There are some things that are out of your hands or anyone else's. You gave it everything you had. I pray God comforts your heart as you sort out these memories. It may be too soon to try to sort them out. I love the Edith Wharton quote, "Some times the bleeding must be staunched before the wound can be probed," and she meant emotional wounds, which you were wounded in that accident, traumatized by witnessing, so you are one of the wounded, and must be gentle with yourself. Rachelanna and Ginnieb are right: your greatest contribution is that you comforted that little girl, now it is out of your hands and in God's hands. Drink your wine, sleep and rest, so your heart can heal.
posted by
Blanche.
on June 27, 2005 at 3:33 PM
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Symphony....
...it's normal to feel the way you are feeling. I hope someone is there to put their arms around you.
posted by
ginnieb
on June 27, 2005 at 2:48 PM
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Symphony,
This brought tears to my eyes. It is tragic.
posted by
word.smith
on June 27, 2005 at 2:37 PM
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You're a true heroine! Deaths are always shocking. We carry on. May peace be with you.
(Ann)
posted by
A-and-B
on June 27, 2005 at 2:27 PM
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you are amazing...
today you were an angel.... blessings to you.
posted by
Metta
on June 27, 2005 at 2:16 PM
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You're wrong...
A lot of people wouldn't have stopped, and the majority of those who would have stopped, wouldn't have tried to help the people. They wouldn't have reached out to help them. They wouldn't have held on to them and talked to them until they couldn't talk anymore. You are a hero, because that little girl died knowing that someone cared that she was in pain. That someone was you. You did all you could. There are some things, that no matter how hard we try, we cannot fix, people that we cannot save. But, at least that little girl didn't end her life looking at the slumped bodies of her parents, she was looking at a kind and caring face.
The world needs more people like you, Maxine.
posted by
RachelAnna
on June 27, 2005 at 2:02 PM
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You have truly incredible heart and courage, Symphony. I wish that everyone who gets behind the wheel of a car could read this.
posted by
reasons
on June 27, 2005 at 1:52 PM
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Thanks ginnieb
but I feel...I just feel...I am sorry I can't even explain...but thank you
...it keeps going over and over it took me ages to write that post I had to keep stopping...I have had a few glasses of wine now ....take care
posted by
_Symphony_
on June 27, 2005 at 1:28 PM
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OH MY GOD SYMPHONY!!!
Oh I'm just getting chills and chills reading this....oh you were amazing..but have you heard of post-traumatic stress? Just be careful Symphony that you are taking care of yourself..you've been through a hell of a lot. You may need to talk to a counsellor about this. Just know Symphony that you did a great thing there..you really did!!! You were good with your children too...Symphony sweetie..you did good!! *hugs* Now you MUST take care of yourself. Please?
posted by
ginnieb
on June 27, 2005 at 1:06 PM
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