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Such a loss is so hard to fathom...

yet you are strong and you are resilient and there will come a time when it eases. It will never go away and you will always hurt for the loss but one of the biggest reasons your brother loved you, I imagine, is your strength and your unfailing spirit. Take the time to heal but please don't give up on your life. I am sure your brother would not want that. And remember that you are always in our thoughts.

Mike's Goddess

posted by mikes_goddess on May 15, 2005 at 8:49 AM | link to this | reply

Just know that you are in our heart.
Love, Vibrance

posted by Vibrance on May 13, 2005 at 9:18 AM | link to this | reply

He will always be wih us..love you

posted by Melodystar on May 10, 2005 at 11:19 PM | link to this | reply

MiaElla,
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, sweetie.

You will find happiness again. Just take it one little baby step at a time...

I hope you're back with us again soon. You and your writing would be sorely missed on this network.

posted by myrrhage_ on May 10, 2005 at 5:56 AM | link to this | reply

MiaElla
I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but I know there isn't.  My sister is my closest friend, and I can't imagine how I would feel if something happened to her.  There are some things you jsut never get over.  Sure you "move on" but the pain is always there lurking, ready to take over.  I hope that in time the pain will not be so sharp and vivid, and that you can enjoy your own wedding day with the memory of your brother.      

posted by Holy_Grail on May 9, 2005 at 8:17 PM | link to this | reply

Knowing that kind of special love
I often wonder what it would have been like to know that special kind of love, that bond that a brother and sister share. I spent my life as an only child but always knew that there was someone before me. My brother died four years before I was born so I never had the chance to love him or bond with him or be friends with him. I cannot begin to understand the loss that you feel, having known that bond, that love, that friendship. But I do, in my own way, as I am sure everyone else does as well, understand losing someone close to your heart. For you, it is missing him, wishing he were there to share your happiness with you. For me, it is wondering how my life would have been different if he had lived. Just as so many before me have told you, he is still with you and loves you very much. And just because you can't feel his embrace he is sharing all of your happy times and sad times with you each and every day.

posted by destructogirl on May 9, 2005 at 10:55 AM | link to this | reply

Mia,

Your brother is still and will always be with you.  He loves you still...Never, ever doubt or forget that.  It's okay not to feel like writing.  Take your time.  I'll be thinking of you.

posted by lovelyladymonk on May 9, 2005 at 10:42 AM | link to this | reply

miaella

Bunny_Pancake_Head  give it a click!

posted by mysteria on May 9, 2005 at 9:08 AM | link to this | reply

You are still so raw Mia..
...I can understand the pain you are feeling..and it's horrid I know. My sister was my best friend as well..like you and your brother...and after 7 years I still think sometimes...'oh I have to call Mary Anne and tell her...this or that'. The pain never goes away...it eases with time..but the scars remain. My heart goes out to you Mia...I don't mean to know exactly what you are feeling...but just take care of yourself Mia....hugs and love to you sweetie.

posted by ginnieb on May 9, 2005 at 8:55 AM | link to this | reply

Your brother is still with you and always will be...
He is no longer in a fleshly body but spirit bodies are just as real--more real in fact. They simply can't live here anymore like we do. Your brother is with you all the time. He loves you as much as he ever did. And he'll be there with you on your wedding day, walking beside you.

posted by Passionflower on May 9, 2005 at 8:51 AM | link to this | reply

(((miaElla)))))
I'm so sorry pretty pretty.  It is a horrible tragedy for your brother to be taken away.  I cry for you MiaElla... I know of such pains.  I will say that LIFE is FOR the LIVING!!!  And the way you feel cheated now, might make you bro feel bad, as I am sure he would never ever discourage you from being happy.  Love and family and close bonds with people make the world better to be in  ((((miaElla) <mia surrounded in love

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